poppy
30-01-07, 12:25
Hi,
I just wanted some advice on what to do.
I have had anxiety problems for about 7 years now. I was agoraphobic at first then i started to go out and the anxiety became more of a general kind. I still have agoraphobic tendancies like fearing crowds, queues & feeling trapped but i was starting to get alot better with these things. I have started CBT at the hospital and they have diagnosed OCD although i dont have any obvious rituals they say that i have mental rituals like ruminating and seeking reassurance.
Anyway i started a part time job in a pub mid november, mainly because we were struggling for money on benefits. I was told when i started that if i couldn't cope with the the job i could go back on incapacity benefit at full rate. I went to my doc on tuesday last week and she said she is not willing to let me do this as it would be a step backwards and i would feel worse in the long run. My anxiety has taken a massive nose dive and i hve full blown panic attacks in shops, last night at work was absolute torture, i was really hot and felt so dizzy i could faint. I am not even significantly better off working because its costing me £30 a week to get to work and i have had o borrow money from family to afford the council tax.
I just feel totally trapped. I dont even get on that well with the people at work, especially th girls. I was hoping to start study in march with the open university but the way things are looking that imposible as i dont even have enough time to clean up and my motivation to do things is slipping because im just so fed up. The doc just gave me a depression questionaire and offered me anti depressants.
I dont know what to do, i am not going to take tablets because they make me worse.
Thanks for listening, any advice would be appreciated.
Thanks
Poppy
I just wanted some advice on what to do.
I have had anxiety problems for about 7 years now. I was agoraphobic at first then i started to go out and the anxiety became more of a general kind. I still have agoraphobic tendancies like fearing crowds, queues & feeling trapped but i was starting to get alot better with these things. I have started CBT at the hospital and they have diagnosed OCD although i dont have any obvious rituals they say that i have mental rituals like ruminating and seeking reassurance.
Anyway i started a part time job in a pub mid november, mainly because we were struggling for money on benefits. I was told when i started that if i couldn't cope with the the job i could go back on incapacity benefit at full rate. I went to my doc on tuesday last week and she said she is not willing to let me do this as it would be a step backwards and i would feel worse in the long run. My anxiety has taken a massive nose dive and i hve full blown panic attacks in shops, last night at work was absolute torture, i was really hot and felt so dizzy i could faint. I am not even significantly better off working because its costing me £30 a week to get to work and i have had o borrow money from family to afford the council tax.
I just feel totally trapped. I dont even get on that well with the people at work, especially th girls. I was hoping to start study in march with the open university but the way things are looking that imposible as i dont even have enough time to clean up and my motivation to do things is slipping because im just so fed up. The doc just gave me a depression questionaire and offered me anti depressants.
I dont know what to do, i am not going to take tablets because they make me worse.
Thanks for listening, any advice would be appreciated.
Thanks
Poppy