tam
30-01-07, 14:05
hi all sorry but really need to let off some steam here.i have been feeling alot better recently and havnt had any panic attacks for months,i can go out now to almost anywere,i do get myself in a panic and get scared but nothing like it was before.the thing is for the last few weeks i feel so fed up and look at everthing going wrong,for instance we went to a party the other night and i had really looked forward to this as i said earlier i have been feeling better,so was looking forward to going out,knowing i would get through and maybe enjoy something for the first time ever,but i got up the morning of the party feeling on edge and slightly scared about going,but talked myself round that id be ok.then about 1hr before going my hubby started with bad stomach we still went but after a couple of hours had to come home.what im trying to say is i feel im getting there and fighting through winning my illness,but something out there is fighting me back.everything i do recently something else goes wrong.why cant i just enjoy something without something else spoiling it.i should feel on top of the world with how i have moved forward but yet feel so depressed with everything.sorry for going on again,thanks tracy