anxietysmymiddlename
23-06-15, 06:11
So im very new on this site.. and i just want some people to relate to. Share expierences with and comfort.
Now my story.. im a 15 year old boy. With bad anxiety and to top it off. Hypochondria.
I have convinced myself i have colon cancer, crohns disease and.ulcerative colitis . This is still going on. But a new problem has caught my eye.
LYMPHOMA.... Or leukimia. I scared of both ... But a few days i noticed a bump on my right side of my groin. I had come to terms that it was many things. From a pimple to a fatty tumour. But i realized that lymph nodes are in the area my bump is. So now im stuck with the state of mind that it is in fact a swollen Node.
then came google. Lol.. i looked up what was up with me and what came up was lots of things. From herpes to aids. I know i dont have aids because i havent done sexual contact witanyone. But it mentioned lymphoma.
I began to go overdrive on research and by the end of the day. Convinced myself that i have it. My weight has stayed in the general number as usual. And appetite isnt nessecarily a problem unless im to anxious to eat. (Sometimes this happens) but last night ny problem got added on too... I read that it causes night sweats.... So guess what i got last night?.. you guessed it. Night sweats. Sometimes i get symptoms of things i read about. But i cant be sure if thats the case For this. Now about the bump. It was a little painful at first. Maybe becayse of how much i poked it. But now it doesnt hurt. Its squishy to an extant and sorta moves.. i cant tell for sure. Nor do i know if it has grew. It is bean size. A little smaller though. I dont know how long its been here. But i found it 3 days ago. My family sorta shrugs it off . My mom says the bump is a zit. But it looks nothing like zit! Its just red and slightly raised. Its mostly felt under my skin. I know im driving my family crazy. But this is so real to me... In fact i just got done crying because i feel they dont understand me. Its very hard on my feelings when they do that. Im like the boy who cried serious disease. Well thats mostly it for now. But please if you can relate. And share stories. I would love that. I need comfort in this terrible time. Reasurrance .thank you for your time!
Now my story.. im a 15 year old boy. With bad anxiety and to top it off. Hypochondria.
I have convinced myself i have colon cancer, crohns disease and.ulcerative colitis . This is still going on. But a new problem has caught my eye.
LYMPHOMA.... Or leukimia. I scared of both ... But a few days i noticed a bump on my right side of my groin. I had come to terms that it was many things. From a pimple to a fatty tumour. But i realized that lymph nodes are in the area my bump is. So now im stuck with the state of mind that it is in fact a swollen Node.
then came google. Lol.. i looked up what was up with me and what came up was lots of things. From herpes to aids. I know i dont have aids because i havent done sexual contact witanyone. But it mentioned lymphoma.
I began to go overdrive on research and by the end of the day. Convinced myself that i have it. My weight has stayed in the general number as usual. And appetite isnt nessecarily a problem unless im to anxious to eat. (Sometimes this happens) but last night ny problem got added on too... I read that it causes night sweats.... So guess what i got last night?.. you guessed it. Night sweats. Sometimes i get symptoms of things i read about. But i cant be sure if thats the case For this. Now about the bump. It was a little painful at first. Maybe becayse of how much i poked it. But now it doesnt hurt. Its squishy to an extant and sorta moves.. i cant tell for sure. Nor do i know if it has grew. It is bean size. A little smaller though. I dont know how long its been here. But i found it 3 days ago. My family sorta shrugs it off . My mom says the bump is a zit. But it looks nothing like zit! Its just red and slightly raised. Its mostly felt under my skin. I know im driving my family crazy. But this is so real to me... In fact i just got done crying because i feel they dont understand me. Its very hard on my feelings when they do that. Im like the boy who cried serious disease. Well thats mostly it for now. But please if you can relate. And share stories. I would love that. I need comfort in this terrible time. Reasurrance .thank you for your time!