rooby
27-06-15, 14:45
I have made such a bad mistake. I have had to go back to work as we seriously cannot manage on my husband who is self employed and without explaining the whole situation I have allowed myself be cornered into a job working as a p.a. for adults with acquired brain injury. I am 2 weeks into it and already about to crack. I have to work one to one taking them out in the car, minding them, walking, generally being responsible for them while in my care.
I can hardly mind myself I am constantly on edge of panic when with them, imagining all kinds of terrible things happening and my fear of losing it.
Thing is I signed a contract for 6 months and I don't no what I can do.
I am diagnosed bipolar 2 with depression mainly and anxiety. I know the stress can bring on either hypo behavior or deep depression and I feel I'm hovering between the two and about to go either way.
It is a horrible feeling like adrenaline all the time.
Please does Anybody have advice
I can hardly mind myself I am constantly on edge of panic when with them, imagining all kinds of terrible things happening and my fear of losing it.
Thing is I signed a contract for 6 months and I don't no what I can do.
I am diagnosed bipolar 2 with depression mainly and anxiety. I know the stress can bring on either hypo behavior or deep depression and I feel I'm hovering between the two and about to go either way.
It is a horrible feeling like adrenaline all the time.
Please does Anybody have advice