I think i am dying

[selphie]

I need some help. I sit here and i am really worried whats going to happen to me. I have this cough itch in my throat, I know its lung cancer and although my x ray has come back clean, I do believe that they have missed something. I know nobody will believe me, but i just know. I know my own body. I now have a painful shoulder. Stabbing pains another sign this is what i am dreading. you can think these pains they are there and i cant take it anymore.

I do not want to die in a hospice i love my children and husband i am no good to them like this, and i cant see things getting better, I do believe they will be better off without me. I have not been a good mother or wife for a long time since this all started.

People say this is my anxiety, but you cant put a cough there you cant make up a cough everyday all day, now this shoulder pain stabbing pain that comes and goes.... i cant see a way out i do not know what to do i am lost very lost.

[MyNameIsTerry]

People say this is my anxiety, but you cant put a cough there you cant make up a cough everyday all day, now this shoulder pain stabbing pain that comes and goes.... i cant see a way out i do not know what to do i am lost very lost.

Yes, you can. If you were to read about just how extreme some peoples somatoform disorders had got, you would be surprised. I won't talk about them on here because they could be a trigger for some people, but lets just say they saw things that you wouldn't believe you could influence and they were put through therapy and helped.

You can also focus more than you would if you didn't have an anxiety disorder and make them worse in terms of how they affect your anxiety.

I think you are doing a lot of catastrophizing here. You know you've had the all clear from trained medical professionals who have used incredibly expensive equipment that they use everyday all day long to check for what you fear and they didn't find anything.

How you are talking about yourself is classic in anxiety, I've done it so many time myself like you probably have before now.

Your children love you, so does your husband. You may not have been able to do all the things you would have liked to but you are still who they love and they will just want that old you back again. They wouldn't be better of without you and I think deep down you know that, they would miss their mum.

:hugs:

[tmckenzie-orr]

Do you smoke ? Its amazing the amount of fears the mind plays over and over, the xray showed its clear it would pick it up you cannot miss it it comes up as a dark patch on the lungs, which you most certainly didnt have or they would of seen it even if its a tiny weeny little patch theyw ill investigate further try and get help for your anxiety ask your doctor to be refered for Cbt Therapy Try and convince yourself that you havent got it and you have a annoying cough but dont have cancer, Relax and chill and be a good wife and mother

[selphie]

Yes, you can. If you were to read about just how extreme some peoples somatoform disorders had got, you would be surprised. I won't talk about them on here because they could be a trigger for some people, but lets just say they saw things that you wouldn't believe you could influence and they were put through therapy and helped.

You can also focus more than you would if you didn't have an anxiety disorder and make them worse in terms of how they affect your anxiety.

I think you are doing a lot of catastrophizing here. You know you've had the all clear from trained medical professionals who have used incredibly expensive equipment that they use everyday all day long to check for what you fear and they didn't find anything.

How you are talking about yourself is classic in anxiety, I've done it so many time myself like you probably have before now.

Your children love you, so does your husband. You may not have been able to do all the things you would have liked to but you are still who they love and they will just want that old you back again. They wouldn't be better of without you and I think deep down you know that, they would miss their mum.

:hugs:

Thanks so much for replying. I do understand that they have checked and found nothing, but after reading up cancer can be missed, and is missed on x rays..... So i can be one of these people. This pain in my shoulder is here, and it is here for a reason its getting worse, its coming everyday in the same place, so i know its something. I cant function, and i feel i cant go on.

I do not know what to do. I am so scared xx

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Do you smoke ? Its amazing the amount of fears the mind plays over and over, the xray showed its clear it would pick it up you cannot miss it it comes up as a dark patch on the lungs, which you most certainly didnt have or they would of seen it even if its a tiny weeny little patch theyw ill investigate further try and get help for your anxiety ask your doctor to be refered for Cbt Therapy Try and convince yourself that you havent got it and you have a annoying cough but dont have cancer, Relax and chill and be a good wife and mother

I did smoke, and as soon as this all started i quit and not had one since. I read up on the internet about this woman that mothers cancer was missed 3 times on a x ray and she had cancer, so what does this tell me.

I am going to the doctors, but last time they were horrible to me and told me there was nothing they could do for me, I cried and she was so nasty xx

[tmckenzie-orr]

The internet is the worst it gives you the horror stories, its like so so so soooooooooo rare to miss it, think all the thousands and thousands of people it does it pick it up for you dont have it all you have it a bad case of health anxiety , the cough could be caused by acid reflux or nasal drip or anything, you dont have lung cancer so please dont think you do relax u have nothing serious

[selphie]

The internet is the worst it gives you the horror stories, its like so so so soooooooooo rare to miss it, think all the thousands and thousands of people it does it pick it up for you dont have it all you have it a bad case of health anxiety , the cough could be caused by acid reflux or nasal drip or anything, you dont have lung cancer so please dont think you do relax u have nothing serious

I know this is going to be embarrassing for me, but i have also developed a habit of coughing into a tissue to check. My phlegm, has a colour to it... I know it should be clear but its not it has bits in and its scaring me I am also sure i can see a tiny spot of blood.. I am falling apart. I am trying relax, but things i have are pointing to that

[MyNameIsTerry]

If you are coughing a lot, you can get the odd bit of blood from the straining on the blood vessels. Someone else was worried about this a couple of weeks ago and everyone reassured her that it can be from the coughing so it could be the same for you.

Coloured mucus with a cough can be a chest infection. I have asthma and I used to have loads of colds with chest infections when I was younger and the GP's at my surgery said that was a possible sign of infection and to see them as I would normally need some antibiotics or steroid treatments back in those days.

There are stories out there of people that the system misses but they are thankfully rare. We know this because every single one of them hits the national media straight away and I think people don't think about this on here. A classic Cognitive Distortion issue there.

There is no reason for a GP to act unprofessionally and you are within your rights to complain if they do. Or ask to see a different one. You deserve to be treated with respect like everybody else.

[selphie]

If you are coughing a lot, you can get the odd bit of blood from the straining on the blood vessels. Someone else was worried about this a couple of weeks ago and everyone reassured her that it can be from the coughing so it could be the same for you.

Coloured mucus with a cough can be a chest infection. I have asthma and I used to have loads of colds with chest infections when I was younger and the GP's at my surgery said that was a possible sign of infection and to see them as I would normally need some antibiotics or steroid treatments back in those days.

There are stories out there of people that the system misses but they are thankfully rare. We know this because every single one of them hits the national media straight away and I think people don't think about this on here. A classic Cognitive Distortion issue there.

There is no reason for a GP to act unprofessionally and you are within your rights to complain if they do. Or ask to see a different one. You deserve to be treated with respect like everybody else.

Not coughing a lot i just have this itch all day everyday that makes me want to cough it just will not go no matter what i do. Its there from the moment i get up till i go to bed. I have no chest infection the doctor has told me that although my phloem is not white it has strange colours in and if i try to cough and then look closely there is a little tiny red spot that you can just see if you look hard enough.

I wish i knew what to do i really do.

[tmckenzie-orr]

Right 1000% you have allergy relux or post nasal drip, nothing else, and the anxiety is playing into it you are checking your mucus for blood to confirm that you have the wicked disease infact you have ocd now for doing this you dont have cancer please please stop worrying and be a mum and a wife again try sleeping with a electric humidifer at night it will help you i have been there where u r but worrying about throat cancer not lung cancer and that ended up bein nothing

[selphie]

Right 1000% you have allergy relux or post nasal drip, nothing else, and the anxiety is playing into it you are checking your mucus for blood to confirm that you have the wicked disease infact you have ocd now for doing this you dont have cancer please please stop worrying and be a mum and a wife again try sleeping with a electric humidifer at night it will help you i have been there where u r but worrying about throat cancer not lung cancer and that ended up bein nothing

Really do you think it could be that?. I take pills for indigestion so its not that. What about the shoulder pain tho? and the chest pain? Same place fr days now.

I really do want to be a mother and wife again, I think my husband will probably divorce me soon. I cant seem to move on. I sit in the same place all day i am having panic attacks, I feel so alone in all this.

[lyndau63]

I have had a permanent tickly cough now for years and it has been diagnosed as allergy related. I have had various tests done. it is really annoying and can be worrying, I know. It has damaged my vocal cords because of all the violent coughing which , as I was a singer, has caused added distress. I do recommend drinking lots of water and inhaling with steam, no products added. All the best; I hope you soon find peace of mind. HA is a horrible thing.:hugs:

[tmckenzie-orr]

Yes i really think it is that infact im certain its that, What is the point in worrying about something you dont have a ruining the life you do have?? go and buy yourself a good humidifier a electric one about £50-70 one and put it by ur bed and you will soon know the difference and even with the tablets your already taking for digestion etc, with the amount of worry and anxiety your having you produce so much more acid which can cause the pains, and anxiety and your so so focused on it , you do not have lung cancer so dismiss that , you are not alone you can message anybody on this site, by pm and we all help you and reassure you, If you didnt have a xray then you have means for concern but now your just lettin your mind think what if they missed something i dont wanna die bla blah blah u need to take a step back say thank god i have a clear x ray, and i dont have lung cancer, and i am not going to ruin myself sitting here everyday panicking and ruining my life if your sitting there everyday like that upsettin yourself not enjoying yourself then arnt you better of dead , you have a husband and you have kids you need to pick yourself up get yourself a humidifer chill out and go and see your doctor and ask to be refered for CBT therapy , Which will help, definately defaintely please dismiss the lung cancer thing because you havent got it:yesyes: so your ticklist is:

1. Go buy a electric humidifer a good one and sleep with it by your bed that will help with allergys and post nasal drip, If thats it.

2. Forget you have cancer because you dont,

3. stop feeling sorry for yourself and live and enjoy your life.

4. make a appointment to see the doctor and ask for cbt therapy so can address this problem

5. BE HAPPY :D :D

you have nothing seriously wrong and the xray proved it it really is amazing how many people on this site and in the world who have anxiety suffer from these problems that you have atm and your mind reads them into your fears and you become in this state of panic

best of luck and pm myself orr anybody if you need help or a chat :D

[selphie]

I have had a permanent tickly cough now for years and it has been diagnosed as allergy related. I have had various tests done. it is really annoying and can be worrying, I know. It has damaged my vocal chords because of all the violent coughing which , as I was a singer, has caused added distress. I do recommend drinking lots of water and inhaling with steam, no products added. All the best; I hope you soon find peace of mind. HA is a horrible thing.:hugs:

Thanks. I am very panicky today. Its now the shoulder pain that has come is worrying down my arm and in my back its horrible.

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Yes i really think it is that infact im certain its that, What is the point in worrying about something you dont have a ruining the life you do have?? go and buy yourself a good humidifier a electric one about £50-70 one and put it by ur bed and you will soon know the difference and even with the tablets your already taking for digestion etc, with the amount of worry and anxiety your having you produce so much more acid which can cause the pains, and anxiety and your so so focused on it , you do not have lung cancer so dismiss that , you are not alone you can message anybody on this site, by pm and we all help you and reassure you, If you didnt have a xray then you have means for concern but now your just lettin your mind think what if they missed something i dont wanna die bla blah blah u need to take a step back say thank god i have a clear x ray, and i dont have lung cancer, and i am not going to ruin myself sitting here everyday panicking and ruining my life if your sitting there everyday like that upsettin yourself not enjoying yourself then arnt you better of dead , you have a husband and you have kids you need to pick yourself up get yourself a humidifer chill out and go and see your doctor and ask to be refered for CBT therapy , Which will help, definately defaintely please dismiss the lung cancer thing because you havent got it:yesyes: so your ticklist is:

1. Go buy a electric humidifer a good one and sleep with it by your bed that will help with allergys and post nasal drip, If thats it.

2. Forget you have cancer because you dont,

3. stop feeling sorry for yourself and live and enjoy your life.

4. make a appointment to see the doctor and ask for cbt therapy so can address this problem

5. BE HAPPY :D :D

you have nothing seriously wrong and the xray proved it it really is amazing how many people on this site and in the world who have anxiety suffer from these problems that you have atm and your mind reads them into your fears and you become in this state of panic

best of luck and pm myself orr anybody if you need help or a chat :D

The worst thing i ever did was get this poxy laptop. All i do is google day in and day out now.

I want to be happy, I hate being like this, but i cant pull myself out of it. Why cant i accept the x ray results thinking i have this, why do i think they have missed things... god why that is all i can think. xx

[tmckenzie-orr]

u need to ban yourself from google i even said to the doctor just the other day i looked at symptoms for my mole and it looks like it could be cancerous he said no its not its fine and this was the 2nd doctor in 2 weeks i had shown juring check up for my anxiety and both said its absolutely fine but google symptoms made me worry so much, AND AS THE DOCTOR SAID IN HIS OWN WORDS " DR GOOGLE IS NEARLY ALWAYS WRONG DONT CONSULT HIM" bann yourself from google and accept it as best as possible do what i said and you will get better :D

[selphie]

u need to ban yourself from google i even said to the doctor just the other day i looked at symptoms for my mole and it looks like it could be cancerous he said no its not its fine and this was the 2nd doctor in 2 weeks i had shown juring check up for my anxiety and both said its absolutely fine but google symptoms made me worry so much, AND AS THE DOCTOR SAID IN HIS OWN WORDS " DR GOOGLE IS NEARLY ALWAYS WRONG DONT CONSULT HIM" bann yourself from google and accept it as best as possible do what i said and you will get better :D

I will try i really wish. Just worried about this shoulder and arm pain xx

[tmckenzie-orr]

stop trying to look for things it could just be stress and tension and rising your blood pressure etc, Dont be worried, it will soon pass if you try and forget i am here if you want to talk about what ever is on your mind, Just relax

[selphie]

stop trying to look for things it could just be stress and tension and rising your blood pressure etc, Dont be worried, it will soon pass if you try and forget i am here if you want to talk about what ever is on your mind, Just relax

I was not looking it has just come on the last few days.

[tmckenzie-orr]

everythin comes on when your stressed, All sorts of symtoms from aching being sick dizzyness aches and pains your body goes into fight mode and causes so many diff symptoms just relax you need to tell yourself you dont have cancer the xray was clear and your fine and this will past and you need cbt or will move on to something else like brain tumor skin cancer etc etc so get it nipped in the bud you are fine

[selphie]

everythin comes on when your stressed, All sorts of symtoms from aching being sick dizzyness aches and pains your body goes into fight mode and causes so many diff symptoms just relax you need to tell yourself you dont have cancer the xray was clear and your fine and this will past and you need cbt or will move on to something else like brain tumor skin cancer etc etc so get it nipped in the bud you are fine

My husband has just said what you did. He said it could be stress and tenseness. And the fact i cant relax not sleeping either very well.

I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon. I will be telling him everything just hope this one will listen to me instead of doing nothing but be uncaring xx.

[tmckenzie-orr]

EXACTLY, just tell him you want to refered for cbt therapy and they will get you onto the road to recovery, what area of england do you live in? i know time for talk was the people that i refered myself to through the doctor hopefully its them they have great reviews

[selphie]

EXACTLY, just tell him you want to refered for cbt therapy and they will get you onto the road to recovery, what area of england do you live in? i know time for talk was the people that i refered myself to through the doctor hopefully its them they have great reviews

I live in the southeast.

[tmckenzie-orr]

ok well make sure u speak to your doctor tomorrow REMEMBER CBT THERAPY best of luck

[selphie]

ok well make sure u speak to your doctor tomorrow REMEMBER CBT THERAPY best of luck

I will do thanks for your help xx