Hereford Al
28-06-15, 21:06
Hi all, first post on here for a very long time. I hope everyone is OK and stuff.
I basically messed things up this week just gone, with a lady from college who I became very close friends with during our year long course together. After a few beers on the night out at the end of the course, I went home. Then I ended up being a massive idiot towards her during a chat on Facebook (wrongly thinking she was questioning the help I had given her recently at college, especially since her Dad died) and wrote some hostile things in an extremely paranoid way.
This, inevitably caused a great deal of hurt. She wrote back angrily, then blocked me from contacting her on there. This was on Wednesday night. Since when, I have been violently sick, a complete bag of nerves and in floods of tears because of my actions. I would never have behaved that way if I had been sober.
This is not the first time I have got into trouble for my binge drinking, especially where social media is concerned. Earlier this year, for example, I upset another classmate when I felt the help I gave them was being mocked by a third party (her ex-partner) over facebook messages.
So I have decided that I want to try and cut down or even give up completely, as this binge drinking (I can go ages without beer) has gotten beyond sensible levels - I can't have just one or two beers, it has to be several.
What sort of options are there for help in terms of alcohol problems? I am hoping to see my GP at some stage this week, but will they be able to help me in any way or will it just be a referral of some kind to Counselling/Therapy/AA?
I'm at that stage in life now, aged 35, where I need to look after myself a hell of a lot more than I do. Especially if I want to go on to Uni in September. I also desperately want to change this behavioural trait, as the binge drinking has been going on for the past 5 years or so. Pretty much since my Citalopram dose got raised from 20mg to 40mg after a setback when a friend committed suicide in 2010 and I was badly affected. I never used to have the mad urge to binge drink until the dose got increased and I wonder how much of it is down to that. I have been on Citalopram since early 2009 and, on the 20mg dose, it was never an issue and I would stick to my 2 pints of beer on a Friday/Saturday and nothing else.
I am also wondering it it would be a good time to come off the medication all together as I have been fine in terms of coping - My anxiety and low mood (last few days aside) have been negligible at worst.
It is just such a mess. I was really happy on Wednesday after finishing a very stressful last few months of this course, so I got too drunk and lashed out when not thinking straight. This has probably cost me one of the best friendships that I have had in my entire adult life, and I am gutted about it beyond belief.
At the same time, I am now absolutely determined to do something about it.
If there are any other forums, regarding alcohol support, you guys could signpost me to then I would also be very grateful.
Any advice would be appreciated.
Al x
I basically messed things up this week just gone, with a lady from college who I became very close friends with during our year long course together. After a few beers on the night out at the end of the course, I went home. Then I ended up being a massive idiot towards her during a chat on Facebook (wrongly thinking she was questioning the help I had given her recently at college, especially since her Dad died) and wrote some hostile things in an extremely paranoid way.
This, inevitably caused a great deal of hurt. She wrote back angrily, then blocked me from contacting her on there. This was on Wednesday night. Since when, I have been violently sick, a complete bag of nerves and in floods of tears because of my actions. I would never have behaved that way if I had been sober.
This is not the first time I have got into trouble for my binge drinking, especially where social media is concerned. Earlier this year, for example, I upset another classmate when I felt the help I gave them was being mocked by a third party (her ex-partner) over facebook messages.
So I have decided that I want to try and cut down or even give up completely, as this binge drinking (I can go ages without beer) has gotten beyond sensible levels - I can't have just one or two beers, it has to be several.
What sort of options are there for help in terms of alcohol problems? I am hoping to see my GP at some stage this week, but will they be able to help me in any way or will it just be a referral of some kind to Counselling/Therapy/AA?
I'm at that stage in life now, aged 35, where I need to look after myself a hell of a lot more than I do. Especially if I want to go on to Uni in September. I also desperately want to change this behavioural trait, as the binge drinking has been going on for the past 5 years or so. Pretty much since my Citalopram dose got raised from 20mg to 40mg after a setback when a friend committed suicide in 2010 and I was badly affected. I never used to have the mad urge to binge drink until the dose got increased and I wonder how much of it is down to that. I have been on Citalopram since early 2009 and, on the 20mg dose, it was never an issue and I would stick to my 2 pints of beer on a Friday/Saturday and nothing else.
I am also wondering it it would be a good time to come off the medication all together as I have been fine in terms of coping - My anxiety and low mood (last few days aside) have been negligible at worst.
It is just such a mess. I was really happy on Wednesday after finishing a very stressful last few months of this course, so I got too drunk and lashed out when not thinking straight. This has probably cost me one of the best friendships that I have had in my entire adult life, and I am gutted about it beyond belief.
At the same time, I am now absolutely determined to do something about it.
If there are any other forums, regarding alcohol support, you guys could signpost me to then I would also be very grateful.
Any advice would be appreciated.
Al x