Lilly13
29-06-15, 21:41
Hi all,
So I work with people with schizophrenia for a living, I am a social support worker. I love my job and I love the people who I work with.
I was previously scared that I was developing schizophrenia, this began when I first experienced the symptom of anxiety called Depersonalization/Derealization. This lasted for 2 years, I was scared I was becoming paranoid, I was scared I was seeing people who weren't there ( I wasn't, I was just afraid.) With time I eventually got over this fear. However, it has randomly returned... I began hearing a voices/noises upon first waking, it will just be a word like "YO" or "Wake up." IT has only happened twtice now, and it is always when I am just waking but still half asleep so I assume this is a hypogonic hallucination.
However, I work with a dude who used to be addicted to a bunch of drugs and I don't really like him or trust him. Today he offered me a coffee, and upon taking a sip I had a thought... "what if he drugged this coffee.." I could not calm myself down about a) the fact that I was now feeling out of because I had been drugged and b) the fact that I had this paranoid and irrational thought.
Please provide me with your input, I am a little worried that I even had this thought... is this a common OCD fear? Or is this a paranoid thought?
So I work with people with schizophrenia for a living, I am a social support worker. I love my job and I love the people who I work with.
I was previously scared that I was developing schizophrenia, this began when I first experienced the symptom of anxiety called Depersonalization/Derealization. This lasted for 2 years, I was scared I was becoming paranoid, I was scared I was seeing people who weren't there ( I wasn't, I was just afraid.) With time I eventually got over this fear. However, it has randomly returned... I began hearing a voices/noises upon first waking, it will just be a word like "YO" or "Wake up." IT has only happened twtice now, and it is always when I am just waking but still half asleep so I assume this is a hypogonic hallucination.
However, I work with a dude who used to be addicted to a bunch of drugs and I don't really like him or trust him. Today he offered me a coffee, and upon taking a sip I had a thought... "what if he drugged this coffee.." I could not calm myself down about a) the fact that I was now feeling out of because I had been drugged and b) the fact that I had this paranoid and irrational thought.
Please provide me with your input, I am a little worried that I even had this thought... is this a common OCD fear? Or is this a paranoid thought?