Beth28
03-07-15, 20:14
I had head pains not headaches but a dull pain in my head. Last year. I had a brain scan almost a year ago to the day. I worried and fretted for a week. That I exhausted myself. I thought everything was Ok. It kinda was. I didn't hear anything from the consultant, so I thought no news is good news. I finally saw the consultant three months later. I had brain lesions. But none with inflammation so it ruled out MS. Which was the primary reason for the MRI. I had a battery of blood tests. All came out clear. I have the lesions but I am fine in the head :-)
Now the new problem or old problem getting worse. My rightside abdo, back and navel pain. I am going for another MRI a year after my head MRI.
I spent a months fretting. My symptoms have gotten worse. I have been looking at cancer websites. I spend time thinking how long do I have. Thinking about my funeral, having such bad panic attacks I can't stay on my own. The fear of increasing pain. Leaving my partner who I adore and my mother. I know I have wasted time. I believe the fear is actually worse than the symptoms.
As much as I know I am NOT in control of my body - what goes on inside it. I can control what I accept as truth. I am frightened. I am scared. I know my partner is too. This time. But I will try to train my mind not to focus on symptoms (even thought rather than a scared mature :) woman. The next few weeks again for me is another time for my mind to go on a frenzy. I know it's natural to worry. But I hope whatever the news I learn to accept and enjoy my life, mind and body.
Now the new problem or old problem getting worse. My rightside abdo, back and navel pain. I am going for another MRI a year after my head MRI.
I spent a months fretting. My symptoms have gotten worse. I have been looking at cancer websites. I spend time thinking how long do I have. Thinking about my funeral, having such bad panic attacks I can't stay on my own. The fear of increasing pain. Leaving my partner who I adore and my mother. I know I have wasted time. I believe the fear is actually worse than the symptoms.
As much as I know I am NOT in control of my body - what goes on inside it. I can control what I accept as truth. I am frightened. I am scared. I know my partner is too. This time. But I will try to train my mind not to focus on symptoms (even thought rather than a scared mature :) woman. The next few weeks again for me is another time for my mind to go on a frenzy. I know it's natural to worry. But I hope whatever the news I learn to accept and enjoy my life, mind and body.