Hypo84
05-07-15, 13:16
I am going to copy this from previous topic and update it here regularly to try to complete this challenge and see if it will help or not.
As of yesterday I decided to stop completely checking for my symptoms and looking if they are really present (most important part of challenge) and I decided not to Google anything, I can only post on anxiety type of forums. Challenge will last 30 days and then I will reevaluate if I want to continue with it or not.
My current symptoms are sudden sweating under armpits and traces of fresh blood in stool.
So, since I would always check my armpits in mirror, touching them to see how much they sweat, checking is it asymmetric and for blood I would constantly check toilet paper multiple times, inspect it etc I stopped doing that yesterday completely. I can feel that I am sweating i.e. but I don't go to mirror to raise my arm and see just how much it is, or I don't touch it to see which side is more wet. I do feel urge to do it, but when I do smth else I forget about it for a while, then I remember, but I consciously remind myself of challenge and I don't do that.
Day 1 went really well. It could just be placebo, but I hope it is not and that it will prove to be very helpful.
Day 2 - It was really hard today. I guess it depends a lot on current mood. If I feel better and my anxiety is lower I can stop myself pretty easily from checking, but today, I was feeling worse and since I am afraid also that I have rapid weight loss I wanted to measure myself today(I did it 2 days ago last time). I started convincing myself that I will only do it once more, and that it won't repeat, and in the end, fortunately I didn't measure myself. I will in 5 days though, since measuring once a week is not that bad, but I do not want to measure 3x a day since it's crazy.
As I said, really tough day, hopefully things will become easier.
As of yesterday I decided to stop completely checking for my symptoms and looking if they are really present (most important part of challenge) and I decided not to Google anything, I can only post on anxiety type of forums. Challenge will last 30 days and then I will reevaluate if I want to continue with it or not.
My current symptoms are sudden sweating under armpits and traces of fresh blood in stool.
So, since I would always check my armpits in mirror, touching them to see how much they sweat, checking is it asymmetric and for blood I would constantly check toilet paper multiple times, inspect it etc I stopped doing that yesterday completely. I can feel that I am sweating i.e. but I don't go to mirror to raise my arm and see just how much it is, or I don't touch it to see which side is more wet. I do feel urge to do it, but when I do smth else I forget about it for a while, then I remember, but I consciously remind myself of challenge and I don't do that.
Day 1 went really well. It could just be placebo, but I hope it is not and that it will prove to be very helpful.
Day 2 - It was really hard today. I guess it depends a lot on current mood. If I feel better and my anxiety is lower I can stop myself pretty easily from checking, but today, I was feeling worse and since I am afraid also that I have rapid weight loss I wanted to measure myself today(I did it 2 days ago last time). I started convincing myself that I will only do it once more, and that it won't repeat, and in the end, fortunately I didn't measure myself. I will in 5 days though, since measuring once a week is not that bad, but I do not want to measure 3x a day since it's crazy.
As I said, really tough day, hopefully things will become easier.