jayjoe18
08-07-15, 19:54
Hi everyone.
So I have been debating the idea of going back to college for a while, I even went for an assessment at my local college, got onto a course but then got too nervous at the last minute and couldn't go in for my first day.
That was about 2-3 months ago now and since then I have been to see my doctor who kindly spoke to the college and advised them of my situation. The college rang back yesterday to offer me to go back and do another assessment but the starting date would be now as I would need to catch up the level before starting in September. The problem is I was looking at starting in September and never had the intention to start now. The reason being is that I don't feel ready. On the morning of what would of been my first day I got major anxiety similar to what I used to get when I was at my worst in high school and I just don't want to go back to feeling that way.
You might wonder why September would be any different but I have just agreed a higher dose with my doctor and so my plan was to give myself a couple of months on the higher dose and hopefully that would help with getting me back to college.
So I'm now unsure what to do, I feel bad to waste their time but I'm not ready yet, maybe I'll be ready in September and I can look at going to a different college? Maybe I'll never be ready and distance learning would be better? At the same time I don't want to feed my anxiety and study at home but maybe it's a good idea at the moment until I feel more able to commit to classes.
Has anyone got any advice? Also, has anyone tried distance learning?
So I have been debating the idea of going back to college for a while, I even went for an assessment at my local college, got onto a course but then got too nervous at the last minute and couldn't go in for my first day.
That was about 2-3 months ago now and since then I have been to see my doctor who kindly spoke to the college and advised them of my situation. The college rang back yesterday to offer me to go back and do another assessment but the starting date would be now as I would need to catch up the level before starting in September. The problem is I was looking at starting in September and never had the intention to start now. The reason being is that I don't feel ready. On the morning of what would of been my first day I got major anxiety similar to what I used to get when I was at my worst in high school and I just don't want to go back to feeling that way.
You might wonder why September would be any different but I have just agreed a higher dose with my doctor and so my plan was to give myself a couple of months on the higher dose and hopefully that would help with getting me back to college.
So I'm now unsure what to do, I feel bad to waste their time but I'm not ready yet, maybe I'll be ready in September and I can look at going to a different college? Maybe I'll never be ready and distance learning would be better? At the same time I don't want to feed my anxiety and study at home but maybe it's a good idea at the moment until I feel more able to commit to classes.
Has anyone got any advice? Also, has anyone tried distance learning?