Cherrytree12
13-07-15, 13:47
Hello everyone,
I am new to this forum and am really looking for people to discuss my problems with. I have suffered from anxiety since my teens (now 27) and it has come in different levels throughout the years. I have always tried to stay away from meds where I can and just try to cope and for a few years, I wasn't too bad at all. However, recently it's come back with a vengeance and I feel hopeless. I don't want to go to the doctors because one of two things will happen, they will either treat my like a hypochondriac and ignore me or they will try to pump me full of drugs which from experience can cause more problems than they are worth. I started taking St John's Wort a few weeks back following a recommendation from a friend and I really did feel like they were helping me. It may be placebo as I have read varying reviews online about it but my stomach wasn't in such a big knot and I generally just felt a bit more relaxed and not worrying so much. I still don't want to become reliant on them so this weekend I didn't take any as I am generally less anxious when I'm not working so thought I would give it a try. Saturday I was OK but last night I woke up sweating and freaking out. My head seemed to have a million different dark thoughts going through it but I couldn't make out exactly what any of them were. I just had an intense feeling of dread and fear. I lay awake for some time wanting to cry and in the end, went to the bathroom to splash some water on my face and then put a movie on to try and focus my mind on something else. I think I drifted off within an hour but woke again in the same state four more times and today I feel so tired and wretched. I took St John's wort again this morning and I do feel a little better but I don't want to be taking tablets for the rest of my life. I don't really have any close friends that I can talk to about this other than the few that know I suffer from anxiety but they don't really understand so it's not worth speaking to them. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I can talk to about it but most of the time I don't because I don't want him to think I'm as crazy as I seem in my own head and if I told him everytime I was feeling anxious, I don't think I'd ever talk about anything else at the moment.
I sometimes drink wine as it helps me at the time of drinking it but the next morning, the anxiety is in overdrive so I am seriously trying to cut it out altogether.
I'm sorry if i have gone on too much for an introduction post but I just started typing and it kept coming so i went with it. If anyone could offer me any advice or just someone who will talk to me about it. I will do my best to help others where I can too.
Thank you x
I am new to this forum and am really looking for people to discuss my problems with. I have suffered from anxiety since my teens (now 27) and it has come in different levels throughout the years. I have always tried to stay away from meds where I can and just try to cope and for a few years, I wasn't too bad at all. However, recently it's come back with a vengeance and I feel hopeless. I don't want to go to the doctors because one of two things will happen, they will either treat my like a hypochondriac and ignore me or they will try to pump me full of drugs which from experience can cause more problems than they are worth. I started taking St John's Wort a few weeks back following a recommendation from a friend and I really did feel like they were helping me. It may be placebo as I have read varying reviews online about it but my stomach wasn't in such a big knot and I generally just felt a bit more relaxed and not worrying so much. I still don't want to become reliant on them so this weekend I didn't take any as I am generally less anxious when I'm not working so thought I would give it a try. Saturday I was OK but last night I woke up sweating and freaking out. My head seemed to have a million different dark thoughts going through it but I couldn't make out exactly what any of them were. I just had an intense feeling of dread and fear. I lay awake for some time wanting to cry and in the end, went to the bathroom to splash some water on my face and then put a movie on to try and focus my mind on something else. I think I drifted off within an hour but woke again in the same state four more times and today I feel so tired and wretched. I took St John's wort again this morning and I do feel a little better but I don't want to be taking tablets for the rest of my life. I don't really have any close friends that I can talk to about this other than the few that know I suffer from anxiety but they don't really understand so it's not worth speaking to them. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I can talk to about it but most of the time I don't because I don't want him to think I'm as crazy as I seem in my own head and if I told him everytime I was feeling anxious, I don't think I'd ever talk about anything else at the moment.
I sometimes drink wine as it helps me at the time of drinking it but the next morning, the anxiety is in overdrive so I am seriously trying to cut it out altogether.
I'm sorry if i have gone on too much for an introduction post but I just started typing and it kept coming so i went with it. If anyone could offer me any advice or just someone who will talk to me about it. I will do my best to help others where I can too.
Thank you x