Skitzasista
19-07-15, 22:37
Hi everyone I've visited this forum numerous times but have since decided tonight to take the jump and register tonight.
I have had ocd since the age of 17 and have just turned 40. First it was hand washing, number checking, re reading, lights etc. Several years ago it turned into intrusive thoughts which have gradually gotten worse. I have the I don't love my fiancé, I'm gay and I fancy kids all of which I'm not and I don't. My head is like a tape playing continually. I have a bad episode last summer where I fixated over a conversation with someone so went to the docs and was prescribed sertraline which I couldn't take as I scared myself off them. I at this point went to cbt for about 15 sessions. At Christmas last year I saved my dads life after he collapsed and since then my ocdhas really gone overboard. At the moment I have some music from something don't even know what stuck in my head causing anxiety. I also fixated on another conversation so decided to do the docs again. I also have to re read stuff, have to sleep on an even number, ask people to repeat stuff and many more.
About 4 weeks ago I was prescribed fluoxetine 20mg which I decided to give a go to along with my diazepam 2mg and so far I am a lot calmer but still fixating on some stuff. Ive lost my appetite too.
I must thank everyone on here as your comments and posts do help me realise I'm not alone and it is just my ocd trying to find a way in, a colleague at work pointed me to the forum and it's brilliant, hopefully I'll get to the point where I can let stuff go too. :hugs:
I have had ocd since the age of 17 and have just turned 40. First it was hand washing, number checking, re reading, lights etc. Several years ago it turned into intrusive thoughts which have gradually gotten worse. I have the I don't love my fiancé, I'm gay and I fancy kids all of which I'm not and I don't. My head is like a tape playing continually. I have a bad episode last summer where I fixated over a conversation with someone so went to the docs and was prescribed sertraline which I couldn't take as I scared myself off them. I at this point went to cbt for about 15 sessions. At Christmas last year I saved my dads life after he collapsed and since then my ocdhas really gone overboard. At the moment I have some music from something don't even know what stuck in my head causing anxiety. I also fixated on another conversation so decided to do the docs again. I also have to re read stuff, have to sleep on an even number, ask people to repeat stuff and many more.
About 4 weeks ago I was prescribed fluoxetine 20mg which I decided to give a go to along with my diazepam 2mg and so far I am a lot calmer but still fixating on some stuff. Ive lost my appetite too.
I must thank everyone on here as your comments and posts do help me realise I'm not alone and it is just my ocd trying to find a way in, a colleague at work pointed me to the forum and it's brilliant, hopefully I'll get to the point where I can let stuff go too. :hugs: