Niabix
21-07-15, 08:37
I am Nina and i live in Germany. I am 18 years old and i suffer from a really deep anxiety since i was 12 years old. Along with my anxiety it comes my depression and more important yet my Derealisation/Depersonalisation.
I used to suffer from panic attacks but since my DR&DP got worse i can no longer feel anything. I feel i am a walking zombie, i don't feel i belong to this world and i am always confused with everything around me. I also can't concentrate or think, i haven't heard my thoughts in years. Is like i am dead, i feel i am. robot, i really do not understand how am i able to talk or move or just do stuff, because i don't make myself do that. Is like if someone was controlling me, like if i was a puppet.
Once i went to a psyquiatrist to treat my Dream Paralisis, thing that i get really often for long periods, the doctor gave me Prozac and Rivotril to take everyday but it only made me sleep for more than 17 hours per day. So i stopped. I really want to come back to earth, i feel helpless and i need to be alive again
I used to suffer from panic attacks but since my DR&DP got worse i can no longer feel anything. I feel i am a walking zombie, i don't feel i belong to this world and i am always confused with everything around me. I also can't concentrate or think, i haven't heard my thoughts in years. Is like i am dead, i feel i am. robot, i really do not understand how am i able to talk or move or just do stuff, because i don't make myself do that. Is like if someone was controlling me, like if i was a puppet.
Once i went to a psyquiatrist to treat my Dream Paralisis, thing that i get really often for long periods, the doctor gave me Prozac and Rivotril to take everyday but it only made me sleep for more than 17 hours per day. So i stopped. I really want to come back to earth, i feel helpless and i need to be alive again