GirlAfraid23
22-07-15, 17:02
I feel absolutely out of control today, the last week has been horrific, my partner has gone away (abroad) with his dad and family friends for a cycling holiday.
I have been contacting him non stop despite the fact I said I wouldn't bother him too much. He's been texting me back but occasionally I don't hear from him for two hours or so and I go into panic mode thinking something awful has happened to him, then my mind starts catastrophising the situation and I end up feeling I should be on a plane going out there.
He just text me back saying I shouldn't need to know where he is every two hours, he said I am getting ridiculous.
It's the first time I've ever had self harming thoughts, It's scary and I don't like it. I feel entirely out of control of the situation and I hate being apart from him. He's back on Monday.
I also feel worthless and that I must be greatly disliked by most people as when I contact my friends and family they don't seem interested or bothered with me.
I've had IBS symptoms all day long and I haven't stopped crying. I don't know what to do or who to turn to.
I have been contacting him non stop despite the fact I said I wouldn't bother him too much. He's been texting me back but occasionally I don't hear from him for two hours or so and I go into panic mode thinking something awful has happened to him, then my mind starts catastrophising the situation and I end up feeling I should be on a plane going out there.
He just text me back saying I shouldn't need to know where he is every two hours, he said I am getting ridiculous.
It's the first time I've ever had self harming thoughts, It's scary and I don't like it. I feel entirely out of control of the situation and I hate being apart from him. He's back on Monday.
I also feel worthless and that I must be greatly disliked by most people as when I contact my friends and family they don't seem interested or bothered with me.
I've had IBS symptoms all day long and I haven't stopped crying. I don't know what to do or who to turn to.