shelly1816
26-07-15, 20:40
Hi,
My name is Michelle and I have been having a very bad day! Currently sat here shivering and feeling sick.
Im 33 and I had my first panic attack 14 years ago , managed to recover and although have always had some anxiety have managed to ignore it for the most part for over 11 years.
In the last 11 years i have achieved so much I never thought i would, i have had 4 kids, got married and 2 years ago started what i felt was the perfect job for me, a teaching assistant. In June i became qualified and was excited at the prospect of training to be a teacher.
Then towards the end of june life as i knew it came crashing down when i had a panic attack out of the blue during a meeting.
I crashed and burned for a few days, shut myself at home, except for getting kids to school. I picked myself up and got on as best i could, have faced many big challenges over the last weeks.
Finally got a docs app on friday and have been worse since!
I have been doing lots of self help, feeling positive as much as poss, reminding myself to turn around the negative thoughts and apart from the odd moment have been doing ok, problem is i cant be positive 24/7 and today have inevitably crashed and burned. Feel like im slowly crawling it back sat here writing this message.
Want to enjoy the holidays but it leaves a huge amount of thinking time which is very dangrous for me as i suffer the type of anxiety where im anxious about being anxious! Seems completely daft to be sat in my comfy bed being anxious about anxiety!
Im terrified about what the next 5 weeks of thinking are going to do to me when im a wreck already and the inevitable return to work!
Anyhow thats me!
Thanks for taking the time to read xx
My name is Michelle and I have been having a very bad day! Currently sat here shivering and feeling sick.
Im 33 and I had my first panic attack 14 years ago , managed to recover and although have always had some anxiety have managed to ignore it for the most part for over 11 years.
In the last 11 years i have achieved so much I never thought i would, i have had 4 kids, got married and 2 years ago started what i felt was the perfect job for me, a teaching assistant. In June i became qualified and was excited at the prospect of training to be a teacher.
Then towards the end of june life as i knew it came crashing down when i had a panic attack out of the blue during a meeting.
I crashed and burned for a few days, shut myself at home, except for getting kids to school. I picked myself up and got on as best i could, have faced many big challenges over the last weeks.
Finally got a docs app on friday and have been worse since!
I have been doing lots of self help, feeling positive as much as poss, reminding myself to turn around the negative thoughts and apart from the odd moment have been doing ok, problem is i cant be positive 24/7 and today have inevitably crashed and burned. Feel like im slowly crawling it back sat here writing this message.
Want to enjoy the holidays but it leaves a huge amount of thinking time which is very dangrous for me as i suffer the type of anxiety where im anxious about being anxious! Seems completely daft to be sat in my comfy bed being anxious about anxiety!
Im terrified about what the next 5 weeks of thinking are going to do to me when im a wreck already and the inevitable return to work!
Anyhow thats me!
Thanks for taking the time to read xx