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01-08-15, 13:17
I rarely go out, but today I feel so proud of myself, because yesterday, I made a special effort and went to my Neice's First Birthday party.
In the morning, i woke up in a panicky state. Then I felt shakey. I recovered a short time later and got on with things.
It took me a long time to get ready and even though time went so quick, I was still determined to carry on getting ready and get to the party. No way did I want to miss out on seeing my Niece, giving her two presents and meeting Relatives who I hadn't met before and also who I had seen for a lot of months.
When I arrived, it was overwhelming for me, because there were 15 people there and hardly room to stand up, so I was glad to get to an area of the house, where there weren't too many people.
I met a baby who I hadn't met before and was lucky to meet him and his family, before they left. i arrived in the evening, a few hours too late, but atleast I got there, eventually.
My Niece was ready for bed and before she went, I opened one of her presents for her.
Food I soon needed , so ate some crisps and a Fondant Fancy cake.
OCD and my handwashing flared up whilst I was at the party, but wasn't too bad. Washed my hands a few times, which I probably needed to anyway.
Later on in the evening, I sang to my family and two relatives, and two of them taught me how to get the tone right, but overall I was already good at singing the song.
I got a bit nervous and giggly, but started again, without anyone minding too much. When I saw the dog staring at me, that really put me off. LOL. I wasn't gonna give yp, so again, started singing again.
Over a lot of years, I have missed out on so much n so many occasions. I started having Counselling a few weeks ago and that has given me a new outlook on life, by giving me the opportunity to set some realistic goals and try harder to go out more.
Really pleased i went to the Party and had a good time.:D
What I didn't say was, that I unfortunately missed an important visitor in the morning yesterday and did chores n so on, to fill in time, waiting for a phone call. The phone rang and I missed it. I felt things were going wrong, but put the negative thoughts aside, eventually and that's why I woke up panicky, because of the looming Visit.
I also suffer from social anxiety.
Today, I don't feel like doing much, but i feel i've got a good enough reason to take things slowly.
Paul, I loved your post. Thank you! I bet the dog just wanted peace n quiet, once alot of guests had left and i ruined it, lol.
In the morning, i woke up in a panicky state. Then I felt shakey. I recovered a short time later and got on with things.
It took me a long time to get ready and even though time went so quick, I was still determined to carry on getting ready and get to the party. No way did I want to miss out on seeing my Niece, giving her two presents and meeting Relatives who I hadn't met before and also who I had seen for a lot of months.
When I arrived, it was overwhelming for me, because there were 15 people there and hardly room to stand up, so I was glad to get to an area of the house, where there weren't too many people.
I met a baby who I hadn't met before and was lucky to meet him and his family, before they left. i arrived in the evening, a few hours too late, but atleast I got there, eventually.
My Niece was ready for bed and before she went, I opened one of her presents for her.
Food I soon needed , so ate some crisps and a Fondant Fancy cake.
OCD and my handwashing flared up whilst I was at the party, but wasn't too bad. Washed my hands a few times, which I probably needed to anyway.
Later on in the evening, I sang to my family and two relatives, and two of them taught me how to get the tone right, but overall I was already good at singing the song.
I got a bit nervous and giggly, but started again, without anyone minding too much. When I saw the dog staring at me, that really put me off. LOL. I wasn't gonna give yp, so again, started singing again.
Over a lot of years, I have missed out on so much n so many occasions. I started having Counselling a few weeks ago and that has given me a new outlook on life, by giving me the opportunity to set some realistic goals and try harder to go out more.
Really pleased i went to the Party and had a good time.:D
What I didn't say was, that I unfortunately missed an important visitor in the morning yesterday and did chores n so on, to fill in time, waiting for a phone call. The phone rang and I missed it. I felt things were going wrong, but put the negative thoughts aside, eventually and that's why I woke up panicky, because of the looming Visit.
I also suffer from social anxiety.
Today, I don't feel like doing much, but i feel i've got a good enough reason to take things slowly.
Paul, I loved your post. Thank you! I bet the dog just wanted peace n quiet, once alot of guests had left and i ruined it, lol.