InNeed
02-08-15, 00:29
I'm a 21 year old guy.It started about a year ago. A lot of things happened... I started to notice that I'm losing my hair, entered a post-grad program (which I never actually wanted so the stress was so high).
At the beginning there was just loss of appetite. Started to eat less and less. Then whenever I ate food it just started to feel like it got stuck in my throat and I would panic, but I would still eat fine after that. Then, I got food poisoned and I puked maybe 4 times, they just gagged when I had nothing more to puke. Since then I couldn't swallow food. At the beginning it would take me 2 hours to finish a McDonalds cheeseburger with a big soda. So I went to the docs and they did a barium swallow test (normal result) and gastroscopy (some GERD damage that wouldn't do this). I gave it a rest and just tried to survive for the school year. I passed the first year with great grades, but at the cost of 10 kilos.
Present time now:
I don't panic every time I try to swallow, nor does my heart race anymore, nor do I have a hard time breathing. Now, I can eat much faster but in a weird position, with some liquid (without it just forget the whole concept of swallowing), a lot of chewing (weird chewing) and patience. I can eat to sustain myself. I am now eating enough food to gain weight while I gym.
I can't eat chewy things such as steak (which I miss dearly). I can't eat in public because I look like some creature while I eat. I am not swallowing properly its not going down the way its supposed to. Whenever I by accident DO swallow in the proper manner I then start to panic.
Can someone tell me what is going on?!? I want to know how I can fix myself. It's making me lose friends, confidence... everything! I haven't even told my family, they'll think I'm some kind of psycho...
At the beginning there was just loss of appetite. Started to eat less and less. Then whenever I ate food it just started to feel like it got stuck in my throat and I would panic, but I would still eat fine after that. Then, I got food poisoned and I puked maybe 4 times, they just gagged when I had nothing more to puke. Since then I couldn't swallow food. At the beginning it would take me 2 hours to finish a McDonalds cheeseburger with a big soda. So I went to the docs and they did a barium swallow test (normal result) and gastroscopy (some GERD damage that wouldn't do this). I gave it a rest and just tried to survive for the school year. I passed the first year with great grades, but at the cost of 10 kilos.
Present time now:
I don't panic every time I try to swallow, nor does my heart race anymore, nor do I have a hard time breathing. Now, I can eat much faster but in a weird position, with some liquid (without it just forget the whole concept of swallowing), a lot of chewing (weird chewing) and patience. I can eat to sustain myself. I am now eating enough food to gain weight while I gym.
I can't eat chewy things such as steak (which I miss dearly). I can't eat in public because I look like some creature while I eat. I am not swallowing properly its not going down the way its supposed to. Whenever I by accident DO swallow in the proper manner I then start to panic.
Can someone tell me what is going on?!? I want to know how I can fix myself. It's making me lose friends, confidence... everything! I haven't even told my family, they'll think I'm some kind of psycho...