StarrySkies
04-08-15, 23:09
Hello everyone.
I'm a 32 year old female from the UK. I honestly don't know if I should be here. I feel there is something wrong with me - there always has been - but I l don't know if it's anxiety or just me hating myself (and looking for excuses for why I'm a useless horrible person).
Do I have anxiety? Your help would be really really appreciated. I'll let you alittle bit about me...
- Worry, insecurity and doubt seem to be my lifelong companions. I feel like they're my own personal demons that have always sat on my shoulders, weighing me down. I feel like I live under a dark storm cloud. I never feel alive or truely happy. I hate myself for feeling this way as I know my live is wonderful.
- I swing from being happy to screaming rages in a heartbeat. I really can't control it. Then once the mist has subsided I hate myself for being so unless. I worry my husband will leave me. I pick and nag at tiny things he may have done wrong and can't seem to let them go.
- Something that happened days ago - even relatively small things - can plague me with worry for days. Scenarios play over and over in my head. I beat myself up for small things I said or did wrong. I want everyone to love me and I worry all the time about rejection. This is affecting my performance at work.
- I think I really want children but I'm terrified I'll be s bad mother. How could I possibly look after a child when I can't eve look after myself? I feel panicked at the thought that my chance is running away and life is ticking by without me.
- I'm in very good health and generally don't worry about my body (aside from the fact I'm fat) but I get tummy aches when I'm stressed. I also obsess over detail. I worry I'll accidentally hurt someone or leave the gas on. These are common worries for me and often impact my working day. I never have trouble sleeping my many days I struggle to get out of the house to face the day.
- After filling out a depression form online my GP has requested to see me. I have an appointment this Friday but I think I will cancel it. I'm worried he wil say I'm wasting their time.
- I feel like a failure. My sister are brilliant. Confident and outgoing. I've thought - though I don't think I'd honestly ever do it - about killing myself. I think 'oh look at that walkway guardrail. I could easily use that to climb over and jump off'. Only on very bad days though.
- I eat for comfort and then make myself sick because I hate how I look. This happens about 3 or 4 times a week.
Goodness sorry there's a lot there. I'm a real mess.
I'm a 32 year old female from the UK. I honestly don't know if I should be here. I feel there is something wrong with me - there always has been - but I l don't know if it's anxiety or just me hating myself (and looking for excuses for why I'm a useless horrible person).
Do I have anxiety? Your help would be really really appreciated. I'll let you alittle bit about me...
- Worry, insecurity and doubt seem to be my lifelong companions. I feel like they're my own personal demons that have always sat on my shoulders, weighing me down. I feel like I live under a dark storm cloud. I never feel alive or truely happy. I hate myself for feeling this way as I know my live is wonderful.
- I swing from being happy to screaming rages in a heartbeat. I really can't control it. Then once the mist has subsided I hate myself for being so unless. I worry my husband will leave me. I pick and nag at tiny things he may have done wrong and can't seem to let them go.
- Something that happened days ago - even relatively small things - can plague me with worry for days. Scenarios play over and over in my head. I beat myself up for small things I said or did wrong. I want everyone to love me and I worry all the time about rejection. This is affecting my performance at work.
- I think I really want children but I'm terrified I'll be s bad mother. How could I possibly look after a child when I can't eve look after myself? I feel panicked at the thought that my chance is running away and life is ticking by without me.
- I'm in very good health and generally don't worry about my body (aside from the fact I'm fat) but I get tummy aches when I'm stressed. I also obsess over detail. I worry I'll accidentally hurt someone or leave the gas on. These are common worries for me and often impact my working day. I never have trouble sleeping my many days I struggle to get out of the house to face the day.
- After filling out a depression form online my GP has requested to see me. I have an appointment this Friday but I think I will cancel it. I'm worried he wil say I'm wasting their time.
- I feel like a failure. My sister are brilliant. Confident and outgoing. I've thought - though I don't think I'd honestly ever do it - about killing myself. I think 'oh look at that walkway guardrail. I could easily use that to climb over and jump off'. Only on very bad days though.
- I eat for comfort and then make myself sick because I hate how I look. This happens about 3 or 4 times a week.
Goodness sorry there's a lot there. I'm a real mess.