phil06
05-08-15, 00:35
For the past year it's over taken my life basically I fear being dirty and poo and urine are my largest fears.
Basically the issue is clothes, surfaces and chairs are becoming off limits and I have rituals where if a chair is dirty I won't sit unless I am wearing an old pair of jeans.
My toilet always gets blocked as I said in my other posts and the my parents dump the bags wherever on the carpet or round the door handle rather than deal with it right away.
My other hygine issue stains on my backside the odd time if I need the toilet and don't go or have bad wind I get marks there when I go to the toilet this makes me want to throw away my clothes. The other day I never knew about it till I went to the toilet but I was using my phone ect and now I fear it's dirty to the degree I want to get rid of these items.
Not sure how common it is for others but I also shower a lot and if I poo I require a shower so I tend to make sure I fit my day round showering and going to the toilet once a day.
I'm moving out my parents soon so hope to control the blocked toilet issue but realise my OCD will keep going in another house and I fear within another year I will find reasons to avoid carpets or door handles ect. Perhaps others are not always perfectly clean? That also worries me but I try not think about it. But when the odd mark is there it's causing me a lot of worry and I throw under wear away ect..
My worries are all based around toilet germs these days not sure it's my biggest worry but I do like to be clean and the harder I try more anxious I get and its becoming impossible to cope each day with so many routines and ocds :weep:
Basically the issue is clothes, surfaces and chairs are becoming off limits and I have rituals where if a chair is dirty I won't sit unless I am wearing an old pair of jeans.
My toilet always gets blocked as I said in my other posts and the my parents dump the bags wherever on the carpet or round the door handle rather than deal with it right away.
My other hygine issue stains on my backside the odd time if I need the toilet and don't go or have bad wind I get marks there when I go to the toilet this makes me want to throw away my clothes. The other day I never knew about it till I went to the toilet but I was using my phone ect and now I fear it's dirty to the degree I want to get rid of these items.
Not sure how common it is for others but I also shower a lot and if I poo I require a shower so I tend to make sure I fit my day round showering and going to the toilet once a day.
I'm moving out my parents soon so hope to control the blocked toilet issue but realise my OCD will keep going in another house and I fear within another year I will find reasons to avoid carpets or door handles ect. Perhaps others are not always perfectly clean? That also worries me but I try not think about it. But when the odd mark is there it's causing me a lot of worry and I throw under wear away ect..
My worries are all based around toilet germs these days not sure it's my biggest worry but I do like to be clean and the harder I try more anxious I get and its becoming impossible to cope each day with so many routines and ocds :weep: