Ditapage
05-08-15, 01:54
Safe people has become a big problem in my life. I become very anxious and/or have full-blown panic attacks around people I don't feel are "safe" and that usually means I feel they aren't wise, sensible, logical, etc. for example I wouldn't feel safe around drunk people. I feel safe around people who I feel can take charge, be sensible, look after me, have medical knowledge etc.
Part of this might come from the fact I was a Jehovah's Witness and believed I could only trust Jehovah's witnesses and they are "safe" people. When I left, I struggled to make friends because now I am super anxious about the world. If I feel someone isn't safe, I have a meltdown. It doesn't help my dad was a heroin addict when I was growing up and my mum is very hot-headed and emotional and a worrier that I don't feel safe with them either.
Is this just a matter of not feeling safe within myself and looking to others for that safety? I told my mum I don't feel safe with her and it offended her. I cut people out merely because they don't make me feel safe because something about their personality triggers my anxiety. For example I was once at somebody's house for a party and there was a bunch of people I knew there but I started panicking when my "safe friend" was late. People asked me "why is she safe but we're not?" , "what can she do that we can't?" I don't even know why this happens. I panic bad until "safe person" shows up.
Is this the case for anybody else? Is this just anxiety? everywhere I go I am looking for "safe" people. If I think a safe person won't be somewhere, I wot go or I panic when I am there. How does someone overcome this and who else experiences this?
Part of this might come from the fact I was a Jehovah's Witness and believed I could only trust Jehovah's witnesses and they are "safe" people. When I left, I struggled to make friends because now I am super anxious about the world. If I feel someone isn't safe, I have a meltdown. It doesn't help my dad was a heroin addict when I was growing up and my mum is very hot-headed and emotional and a worrier that I don't feel safe with them either.
Is this just a matter of not feeling safe within myself and looking to others for that safety? I told my mum I don't feel safe with her and it offended her. I cut people out merely because they don't make me feel safe because something about their personality triggers my anxiety. For example I was once at somebody's house for a party and there was a bunch of people I knew there but I started panicking when my "safe friend" was late. People asked me "why is she safe but we're not?" , "what can she do that we can't?" I don't even know why this happens. I panic bad until "safe person" shows up.
Is this the case for anybody else? Is this just anxiety? everywhere I go I am looking for "safe" people. If I think a safe person won't be somewhere, I wot go or I panic when I am there. How does someone overcome this and who else experiences this?