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Hello, my name is Andrea and I'm 28 years old. I just discovered this site two days ago but unfortunately I'm not new to anxiety and panic attacks. Everything started 11 years ago and I've had my ups and downs but I feel like this has been chasing me my entire life. I was doing ok until last August. I've tried everything from homeopathy to acupuncture. I don't eat meat or dairy. I go to EMDR therapy once a week but nothing is helping. Everyday I feel worse and I feel like my mind can't take it anymore. I know I'm not strong enough to try to commit suicide but there are sometimes I wish someone would kill me and take the pain away from me. I've got every symptom on the menu and have them constantly. I am lucky if I am able to feel fine a couple of hours a week. I can't be alone, not at home, not outside. I can't drive because I feel I can't trust my body and that suddenly I'll loose control. I am desperate and embarrassed. The only person I can count on is my husband and I feel like I'm destroying his life. We've only been married for 14 months and instead of being happy my anxiety is making us live in a nightmare. I would just love to be a normal healthy woman... I see women my age having babies (my strongest desire) and I don't understand what I did wrong to be punished this way.
I would love to hear from anyone who has been in a similar situation if there's actually a solution to this. I keep hearing it's going to be ok but after 1 year I don't believe it myself.
venusbluejeans
07-08-15, 00:59
Hiya Obatam and welcome to NMP :welcome:
Why not take a look at our articles on our home page, they contain a wealth of information and are a great starting place for your time on the forum.
I hope you find the as site helpful and informative as I have and that you get the help and support you need here and hope that you meet a few friends along the way :yesyes:
Hi Obatam
I have been like you are now and I did get better, in fact when I became pregnant I felt great!
Please don't despair, you certainly can get better, you just have to break the cycle. Have you read Claire Weekes?
I see you have a Spanish flag, I am in Spain too...
Xxx
Hi there
I suffered 12 years ago and my anxiety has come back. but I Put it in its place, you have to be strong, easier said than done I know. Life is a beautiful thing and you have your husband there and I am sure he married you for a reason, that you are a good human being. I am back to work now 4th day today, there is hope. xxx
I'm sorry to hear how your suffering especially for so long, but please don't give up it will get better total cliche I no but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I too was young when all this started, I'm 27 now. I felt like this for two years I wanted to end it all, everyday I woke up wishing I was dead, but like you didn't have the courage to do it myself.
Then after two years off suffering one day I just started to feel a bit better and it just kept going, my anxiety was still there but definitely not as extreme it started to get more manageable.
I still have anxiety issues with feeling comfortable around ppl but I'm working on it with a cbt therapist.
Hope this gives you a little bit off comfort. xx
You are not alone at all. My anxiety and panic has become a real nightmare for my husband as well. We can't really go anywhere and it has changed our lives so much. He is so supportive but he doesn't completely understand. Which I know you really can't until you experience it. Which I do not want for anyone, ever.
I know exactly how you feel when you say you feel like your being punished and you see everyone else living happy lives without this. That's how I feel every day too :( I can say that I was anxiety free for a couple years. I don't know why but this current episode is really taking its toll. It will get better tho just trust that it will :)
Hi Obatam
I have been like you are now and I did get better, in fact when I became pregnant I felt great!
Please don't despair, you certainly can get better, you just have to break the cycle. Have you read Claire Weekes?
I see you have a Spanish flag, I am in Spain too...
Xxx
Hi! Thank you for your help. It's nice to meet someone who understands what I'm going through. I haven't read Weekes but I'll google her. Where are you in Spain?
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Hi there
I suffered 12 years ago and my anxiety has come back. but I Put it in its place, you have to be strong, easier said than done I know. Life is a beautiful thing and you have your husband there and I am sure he married you for a reason, that you are a good human being. I am back to work now 4th day today, there is hope. xxx
Thank you for your kind words. I hope everything is going better now.
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I'm sorry to hear how your suffering especially for so long, but please don't give up it will get better total cliche I no but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I too was young when all this started, I'm 27 now. I felt like this for two years I wanted to end it all, everyday I woke up wishing I was dead, but like you didn't have the courage to do it myself.
Then after two years off suffering one day I just started to feel a bit better and it just kept going, my anxiety was still there but definitely not as extreme it started to get more manageable.
I still have anxiety issues with feeling comfortable around ppl but I'm working on it with a cbt therapist.
Hope this gives you a little bit off comfort. xx
Yes, it does give me some comfort. In all these years I had never met so many people who could at least understand what I'm going through. I just hope I don't have to wait for another year to start feeling better (a year has been more than enough :wacko:) Thank you!
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