worried 101
10-08-15, 17:25
Hi guys.
I haven't used this site in a long time as have been a lot better in the last 6 months or so but unfortunately the anxiety around my holiday has risen and I'm really struggling. I have always found holidays hard, even from a young age, the change of location/ routine, being away from home and struggling with general anxiety has always been a problem. I would go on holiday with my family and then feel so anxious and just want to be back home.
I have been with my partner for the last five years and struggled through a lot of problems, which my partner helped me work through. Two years ago I had what I can only describe as a breakdown while on holiday, I was off work for 6 weeks and had emergency care from my mental health team.
Long story short I had new meds, counselling and was in a much better place when I went on holiday last year, I was private counselling and felt less anxious about the situation. I had a great time, we met some of toms family and they stayed in the area for a few days and the rest of the holiday went really well.
So when my partner rebooked the holiday in the same place again I was really excited, even had a countdown on my phone! Last week I was going through my partners childrens clothes to see what we would need and this wave of anxiety just hit me so suddenly it literally felt like id been slapped in the face. This feeling of something crawling in my stomach, flipping it over and over and then my heart rate went up and up and it felt like something squeezing my chest.This passed and I went on as normal, but quite shaken up from it, and then the next day it came back and then for longer. Managed to calm myself and put the steps I'd been given in place and then the next day it was there when I woke up and it was unbelievable. Couldn't stop crying, even when in public and could not calm down. Was horrible and I was so upset that it had come back so badly when I thought I had beaten this.
Just wondering if anyone can relate to this or has any advice on how to tackle this. I've got through so much and felt my life take a real turning point after the success of the holiday last year and don't want to lose it like I did before and get back down to those depths again cos I really don't think I have the strength for all of that again.
Sorry this is so long and any help would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
I haven't used this site in a long time as have been a lot better in the last 6 months or so but unfortunately the anxiety around my holiday has risen and I'm really struggling. I have always found holidays hard, even from a young age, the change of location/ routine, being away from home and struggling with general anxiety has always been a problem. I would go on holiday with my family and then feel so anxious and just want to be back home.
I have been with my partner for the last five years and struggled through a lot of problems, which my partner helped me work through. Two years ago I had what I can only describe as a breakdown while on holiday, I was off work for 6 weeks and had emergency care from my mental health team.
Long story short I had new meds, counselling and was in a much better place when I went on holiday last year, I was private counselling and felt less anxious about the situation. I had a great time, we met some of toms family and they stayed in the area for a few days and the rest of the holiday went really well.
So when my partner rebooked the holiday in the same place again I was really excited, even had a countdown on my phone! Last week I was going through my partners childrens clothes to see what we would need and this wave of anxiety just hit me so suddenly it literally felt like id been slapped in the face. This feeling of something crawling in my stomach, flipping it over and over and then my heart rate went up and up and it felt like something squeezing my chest.This passed and I went on as normal, but quite shaken up from it, and then the next day it came back and then for longer. Managed to calm myself and put the steps I'd been given in place and then the next day it was there when I woke up and it was unbelievable. Couldn't stop crying, even when in public and could not calm down. Was horrible and I was so upset that it had come back so badly when I thought I had beaten this.
Just wondering if anyone can relate to this or has any advice on how to tackle this. I've got through so much and felt my life take a real turning point after the success of the holiday last year and don't want to lose it like I did before and get back down to those depths again cos I really don't think I have the strength for all of that again.
Sorry this is so long and any help would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks