char123
12-08-15, 21:12
Hi I apologise for the long post but I really need someone's input in this?!
Okay so lately I've had a fear of being attracted to my brother which I've written a post about and I feel better after the responses but thinking of that has for some reason sort of made me feel uncomfortable around my own dad?! It's hard to explain but it's like I'm uncomfortable with him in almost a sexual way. It is so messed up. It is so ridiculous because I know that he wouldn't sexually harm me and it's like I'm paranoid or someat.my parents have been divorced for like 5 years and I see my dad like once a week more or less. I used to be quite close with my dad when we were younger but I know and remember that my dad and mum argued probably every day and my dad was violent ( never towards us but like slamming doors, hitting walls etc). I found out like a year ago that he had cheated on my mum before I was born and I hate my dad for all that stuff. He less violent but he still loses his temper and shouts for unnecessary reasons.
So anyway, for example I was walking in front for him and suddenly felt really uncomfortable in case he was looking at my bum (wtf I know he wouldn't but it's like I'm paranoid!). I guess I have a weird thing around most older men for some reason , like I'm afraid they're attracted to me (wth right,) Also, I kept having disgusting weird sexual thoughts about my dad. I know that that is a symptom of OCD so do is it possible what this is. I definitely think too much about everything and I'm afraid this is going to affect my future in that how I act around men- what if it prevents me from having a boyfriend etc.
I hate this about myself. Recently this year, it's like I've gained this 'habit' of reviewing myself in certain situations and noting my thoughts and feelings then turning it into an issue by over thinking and ovethinking again. Before I began thinking this way, this odd thought would never have even entered my mind. What is wrong with me?!
I'm a 16 year old female who freaks out easily so please reply nicely! Thanks for reading if you did, I feel so abnormal in thinking this& I want it to stop. I have a counsellor but don't really know how to bring this up because is this even down to anxiety?
Thanks again
Okay so lately I've had a fear of being attracted to my brother which I've written a post about and I feel better after the responses but thinking of that has for some reason sort of made me feel uncomfortable around my own dad?! It's hard to explain but it's like I'm uncomfortable with him in almost a sexual way. It is so messed up. It is so ridiculous because I know that he wouldn't sexually harm me and it's like I'm paranoid or someat.my parents have been divorced for like 5 years and I see my dad like once a week more or less. I used to be quite close with my dad when we were younger but I know and remember that my dad and mum argued probably every day and my dad was violent ( never towards us but like slamming doors, hitting walls etc). I found out like a year ago that he had cheated on my mum before I was born and I hate my dad for all that stuff. He less violent but he still loses his temper and shouts for unnecessary reasons.
So anyway, for example I was walking in front for him and suddenly felt really uncomfortable in case he was looking at my bum (wtf I know he wouldn't but it's like I'm paranoid!). I guess I have a weird thing around most older men for some reason , like I'm afraid they're attracted to me (wth right,) Also, I kept having disgusting weird sexual thoughts about my dad. I know that that is a symptom of OCD so do is it possible what this is. I definitely think too much about everything and I'm afraid this is going to affect my future in that how I act around men- what if it prevents me from having a boyfriend etc.
I hate this about myself. Recently this year, it's like I've gained this 'habit' of reviewing myself in certain situations and noting my thoughts and feelings then turning it into an issue by over thinking and ovethinking again. Before I began thinking this way, this odd thought would never have even entered my mind. What is wrong with me?!
I'm a 16 year old female who freaks out easily so please reply nicely! Thanks for reading if you did, I feel so abnormal in thinking this& I want it to stop. I have a counsellor but don't really know how to bring this up because is this even down to anxiety?
Thanks again