Jozw
14-08-15, 10:53
Hi everyone, i'm not usually a fan of forums but i'm hoping that venting / talking to others about my problems may lift the weight from my shoulders
To cut a long story short i lost my best friend around 20 months ago, he died suddenly, no warning aged 32 whilst he was with his 2 year daughter, heart breaking...
Since his passing my life has changed dramatically, i had a small panic attack at his funeral & since then it's taken over my life, a month or 2 later i had the biggest attack of my life, i thought what happened to him was happening to me, Ambulance was called, was taken to hosp & surprisingly given the all clear, gradually it began to drown me, i can no longer drive, be alone, be in crowded places, i make excuses up to get out of trips, im constantly thinking that what happened to my friend WILL happen to me & it scares the living s**t out of me, every little ache or pain i get becomes a huge deal, i think the worse possible thoughts, it's ruining my life, i was so happy, fantastic job, sports car, nice house, stunning loving partner & now i'm just nothing, ive had hynotherapy, behavioural therapy, read all claire weekens books, currently doing a self help course with a belgian chap named Geert to try & sort my life out
My symptoms inc extreme palpatations, hyperventilate, spaced out, jelly legs to the point where i can no longer use the clutch when driving, negative thoughts, blurred visions, nausia, anger, fear
I'm not agoraphobic, i do try to leave the house daily but when i encounter lots of people all of the above happen
Sorry to burden others with my issues but i'm at a witts end
To cut a long story short i lost my best friend around 20 months ago, he died suddenly, no warning aged 32 whilst he was with his 2 year daughter, heart breaking...
Since his passing my life has changed dramatically, i had a small panic attack at his funeral & since then it's taken over my life, a month or 2 later i had the biggest attack of my life, i thought what happened to him was happening to me, Ambulance was called, was taken to hosp & surprisingly given the all clear, gradually it began to drown me, i can no longer drive, be alone, be in crowded places, i make excuses up to get out of trips, im constantly thinking that what happened to my friend WILL happen to me & it scares the living s**t out of me, every little ache or pain i get becomes a huge deal, i think the worse possible thoughts, it's ruining my life, i was so happy, fantastic job, sports car, nice house, stunning loving partner & now i'm just nothing, ive had hynotherapy, behavioural therapy, read all claire weekens books, currently doing a self help course with a belgian chap named Geert to try & sort my life out
My symptoms inc extreme palpatations, hyperventilate, spaced out, jelly legs to the point where i can no longer use the clutch when driving, negative thoughts, blurred visions, nausia, anger, fear
I'm not agoraphobic, i do try to leave the house daily but when i encounter lots of people all of the above happen
Sorry to burden others with my issues but i'm at a witts end