Dc1980
19-08-15, 08:44
Hi all,
I'm hoping this doesn't come across as self-congratulatory or anything like that. It's not. It's just that I wanted to share my experiences over the past month to see if there's anything I should be doing differently / maybe I did the right thing and can share that...
Around early July my work moved offices, to a location far closer to home, in a modern building with a lovely walk on the way in.
The first day came and I went for a walk with the guys I work with and around half way round I cam over very peculiar and felt like I was about to (at best) pass out. I didn't...
Following this, I started finding myself slowly nit picking things that were wrong both in the office and then diagnosing why I felt faint.
Looking back I'm almost certain it was some sort of anxiety/panic attack.
Following on from that the usual pattern of visiting Dr Google's Malpractice for "advice" led me to convincing myself that I'm a walking miracle as with so many types of cancer riddling my body the fact I was walking and breathing unaided must have made me a marvel...
So for 3 weeks I fell into the usual pattern, waking up every hour, feeling like a zombie, thoughts getting worse. Absolutely screwed cognitive process, needing people around me to tell me I'm being stupid rather than putting 2+2 together myself.
Amazingly once with a bit of alcohol inside me on a Saturday night I felt fine. And one Sunday that was where it dawned on me...
So out came the affirmation mp3s. Out came the pad and pen and I started dealing with the issues in a rational way that I could see. Most importantly, I could handle it!
I certainly hope this doesn't make people feel like I am trivialising their anxieties, it's not something that everyone has a switch to make vanish (my body is still coping, the scabs up my nose and in my eyebrows are reminding me that my bosy is still dealing with the fallout!) But I was hoping that maybe writing something where I'm feeling comfortable with myself again would be a positive to add here.
If you feel offended and think I'm gloating, I am very sorry. Feel free to inbox me all the abuse you have, I'm very thick skinned :)
Take care
I'm hoping this doesn't come across as self-congratulatory or anything like that. It's not. It's just that I wanted to share my experiences over the past month to see if there's anything I should be doing differently / maybe I did the right thing and can share that...
Around early July my work moved offices, to a location far closer to home, in a modern building with a lovely walk on the way in.
The first day came and I went for a walk with the guys I work with and around half way round I cam over very peculiar and felt like I was about to (at best) pass out. I didn't...
Following this, I started finding myself slowly nit picking things that were wrong both in the office and then diagnosing why I felt faint.
Looking back I'm almost certain it was some sort of anxiety/panic attack.
Following on from that the usual pattern of visiting Dr Google's Malpractice for "advice" led me to convincing myself that I'm a walking miracle as with so many types of cancer riddling my body the fact I was walking and breathing unaided must have made me a marvel...
So for 3 weeks I fell into the usual pattern, waking up every hour, feeling like a zombie, thoughts getting worse. Absolutely screwed cognitive process, needing people around me to tell me I'm being stupid rather than putting 2+2 together myself.
Amazingly once with a bit of alcohol inside me on a Saturday night I felt fine. And one Sunday that was where it dawned on me...
So out came the affirmation mp3s. Out came the pad and pen and I started dealing with the issues in a rational way that I could see. Most importantly, I could handle it!
I certainly hope this doesn't make people feel like I am trivialising their anxieties, it's not something that everyone has a switch to make vanish (my body is still coping, the scabs up my nose and in my eyebrows are reminding me that my bosy is still dealing with the fallout!) But I was hoping that maybe writing something where I'm feeling comfortable with myself again would be a positive to add here.
If you feel offended and think I'm gloating, I am very sorry. Feel free to inbox me all the abuse you have, I'm very thick skinned :)
Take care