missgatsby
19-08-15, 17:53
A lot of people would say that's an oxymoron, but I disagree.
Social anxiety makes it really tough for me to make friends. It's hard for me to believe that someone actually wants to be friends with me... I always feel that they want something. I'm also really nervous about the idea of being alone with someone I don't know very well, because I never know what to talk about. I hate, HATE, awkward silences, but I can't make small talk. It just doesn't feel natural to me.
Introversion goes hand in hand with that. First of all, it's a struggle to even find the right person that I feel I can talk to. When I do make a friend, they, naturally, expect me to hang out and talk to them frequently. I don't feel the same need, and so the friendship either fades, or I end up building resentment towards that person by forcing myself to go out.
I was really close to my family before I moved across the state to live with my boyfriend two years ago. I haven't made any friends, and yet, in a way, I don't want to. I don't want the obligation. I'd love to have a group of people I've known for years and years, and they don't mind if I don't see them all the time, because I see them once in awhile and that's enough.
Is anyone else going through this? It is so great for me just to vent.
Social anxiety makes it really tough for me to make friends. It's hard for me to believe that someone actually wants to be friends with me... I always feel that they want something. I'm also really nervous about the idea of being alone with someone I don't know very well, because I never know what to talk about. I hate, HATE, awkward silences, but I can't make small talk. It just doesn't feel natural to me.
Introversion goes hand in hand with that. First of all, it's a struggle to even find the right person that I feel I can talk to. When I do make a friend, they, naturally, expect me to hang out and talk to them frequently. I don't feel the same need, and so the friendship either fades, or I end up building resentment towards that person by forcing myself to go out.
I was really close to my family before I moved across the state to live with my boyfriend two years ago. I haven't made any friends, and yet, in a way, I don't want to. I don't want the obligation. I'd love to have a group of people I've known for years and years, and they don't mind if I don't see them all the time, because I see them once in awhile and that's enough.
Is anyone else going through this? It is so great for me just to vent.