katieannmarie
23-08-15, 08:09
hi
for past few days i have been feeling churning stomach and jelly legs..crying spells and racing heart..
I came of my AD few months ago an then i started sleeping too much an become irritable, not ideal when i have a 4 year old, (single parent) im 27..
i decided to go back on them an since i have had symptoms, although i have had a bit to deal with lately..
my mam who lives near me an we are very close has recently split with her partner (dave) an moved a french guy in the next day whom she been talking online to for 1 year.. this made me have anciety an the fact that dave was so close to riley my son, he keeps crying an asking for grandad, he was close with him coz his father isnt allowed contact coz hes violent an social servies have adcvised me to disallow contact, this made me feel guilty an brought on more anxiety..
i keep crying an rang samaritans, i had a panic attack on the phone, i snapped at my little boy and this made me feel guilty an i cut my thighs with a razor not deep but i did, to punish myself, my mam has had cancer twice an i worry about her health all time, an how i would cope without her, my real dad i have never seen, its just me an riley an i feel gulty coz he has not got much family, an now dave has gone i feel worse, i have few friends an a cousin im close too but she is with a controlling man an he doesnt like us talking, i have another friend but she only wants me to go out drinking an not for coffee even though we live close, i feel they is somet wrong with me,
i was at college an met some friends but that was ruined by my ex coz he became friends with them all, an that made it difficult, so i quit, my ex was violent to me an tried gouging my eyes out in front of my son, my eyes was all bruised an cut, my ex says if don't let him see riley he will kill my mother an pour acid in her face, i feel so bad, an constant guilt,
its like im scared to get close to people coz i scared that if i dont see them anymore i will feel alone,
right now i have churning stomach an cold sweaty feet, an lump in throat like im going to cry, im scared ive not eaten in 3 days an i havent been this bad before, having my son is making me guilty coz i want to be a happy mum,
xxx:sad:
for past few days i have been feeling churning stomach and jelly legs..crying spells and racing heart..
I came of my AD few months ago an then i started sleeping too much an become irritable, not ideal when i have a 4 year old, (single parent) im 27..
i decided to go back on them an since i have had symptoms, although i have had a bit to deal with lately..
my mam who lives near me an we are very close has recently split with her partner (dave) an moved a french guy in the next day whom she been talking online to for 1 year.. this made me have anciety an the fact that dave was so close to riley my son, he keeps crying an asking for grandad, he was close with him coz his father isnt allowed contact coz hes violent an social servies have adcvised me to disallow contact, this made me feel guilty an brought on more anxiety..
i keep crying an rang samaritans, i had a panic attack on the phone, i snapped at my little boy and this made me feel guilty an i cut my thighs with a razor not deep but i did, to punish myself, my mam has had cancer twice an i worry about her health all time, an how i would cope without her, my real dad i have never seen, its just me an riley an i feel gulty coz he has not got much family, an now dave has gone i feel worse, i have few friends an a cousin im close too but she is with a controlling man an he doesnt like us talking, i have another friend but she only wants me to go out drinking an not for coffee even though we live close, i feel they is somet wrong with me,
i was at college an met some friends but that was ruined by my ex coz he became friends with them all, an that made it difficult, so i quit, my ex was violent to me an tried gouging my eyes out in front of my son, my eyes was all bruised an cut, my ex says if don't let him see riley he will kill my mother an pour acid in her face, i feel so bad, an constant guilt,
its like im scared to get close to people coz i scared that if i dont see them anymore i will feel alone,
right now i have churning stomach an cold sweaty feet, an lump in throat like im going to cry, im scared ive not eaten in 3 days an i havent been this bad before, having my son is making me guilty coz i want to be a happy mum,
xxx:sad: