sara465
23-08-15, 21:35
I will start off saying I'm only 13 in 8th grade (kinda...) and I have not been diagnosed with anxiety or a panic disorder, though I am planning to go to a doctor sometime this week. I am also new to this website. Here is what happened:
I moved to a new state about 4 months ago and everything was fine for a while except for the fact that I was dreading starting school again. Everything was fine until a couple days before school started. My mom and I went cloths shopping at the mall. We walked into a store and I was fine for about 5 minutes, but then I started to feel a little bit shaky and nauseous. I thought to myself, "I should just go sit down somewhere for a little bit and it will go away.." so I told my mom I was going to try on cloths in the fitting room. I sat there for a while and only felt worse, like I was going to throw up. My heart was racing and I kept having hot flashes, while my legs were so shaky I couldn't stand up. I tried breathing in and out, counting to 4, drinking water, and trying to calm myself down. I began to panic, so I called my mom and said we need to go home. My legs began to do this weird twitching thing... like I couldn't sit still. My whole body just felt so weird, almost like a jittery feeling. We finally went home and I did some research and figured that it was a panic attack from all the stress of dreading school. At this point, I was terrified. I was worried it would happen at school. The next day, I went back to the mall because I still needed some new cloths. I stayed for longer and pushed through the nauseous feeling, but still had to go home earlier then I would've liked. This time though, no jittery shaky feeling.
The next day was the first day of school, and I basically spent the whole day crying and refused to go. I begged to do online school or home school but my parents wouldn't let me. The day after that, I still wouldn't go, but my parents forced me to at least go to the last period of the day. I got to school and sat in the class for about 10 minutes thinking things along the lines of, "Don't feel sick. Everyone is nice! You're doing fine!" I had to call to go home... The nurse said my temp was a bit over normal and told me not to come the next day (which was Friday), then sent me home. I felt like I was going to throw up. I can't even go to the store or get in the car anymore without feeling sick. My parents think I'm just using excuses to not have to go to school and just stay locked in my room. They might force me to go to school again... I am so scared. How am I supposed to live a normal life if I can't even go to the store?!
My parents also are telling me that if I go to online school, I am running away from the fear. And that when I start school next year (freshman year of high school) it will be the same thing all over again. I know that they are right, but if I go to school I will just be sick and have to go home every single day. I know that by thinking that to myself it will make it worse. I don't know what to do... how will I go to high school, how do I go to college, how can I get a job?! It is Sunday now and I spent the whole weekend feeling hopeless and wanting to die. I don't know what to do
I moved to a new state about 4 months ago and everything was fine for a while except for the fact that I was dreading starting school again. Everything was fine until a couple days before school started. My mom and I went cloths shopping at the mall. We walked into a store and I was fine for about 5 minutes, but then I started to feel a little bit shaky and nauseous. I thought to myself, "I should just go sit down somewhere for a little bit and it will go away.." so I told my mom I was going to try on cloths in the fitting room. I sat there for a while and only felt worse, like I was going to throw up. My heart was racing and I kept having hot flashes, while my legs were so shaky I couldn't stand up. I tried breathing in and out, counting to 4, drinking water, and trying to calm myself down. I began to panic, so I called my mom and said we need to go home. My legs began to do this weird twitching thing... like I couldn't sit still. My whole body just felt so weird, almost like a jittery feeling. We finally went home and I did some research and figured that it was a panic attack from all the stress of dreading school. At this point, I was terrified. I was worried it would happen at school. The next day, I went back to the mall because I still needed some new cloths. I stayed for longer and pushed through the nauseous feeling, but still had to go home earlier then I would've liked. This time though, no jittery shaky feeling.
The next day was the first day of school, and I basically spent the whole day crying and refused to go. I begged to do online school or home school but my parents wouldn't let me. The day after that, I still wouldn't go, but my parents forced me to at least go to the last period of the day. I got to school and sat in the class for about 10 minutes thinking things along the lines of, "Don't feel sick. Everyone is nice! You're doing fine!" I had to call to go home... The nurse said my temp was a bit over normal and told me not to come the next day (which was Friday), then sent me home. I felt like I was going to throw up. I can't even go to the store or get in the car anymore without feeling sick. My parents think I'm just using excuses to not have to go to school and just stay locked in my room. They might force me to go to school again... I am so scared. How am I supposed to live a normal life if I can't even go to the store?!
My parents also are telling me that if I go to online school, I am running away from the fear. And that when I start school next year (freshman year of high school) it will be the same thing all over again. I know that they are right, but if I go to school I will just be sick and have to go home every single day. I know that by thinking that to myself it will make it worse. I don't know what to do... how will I go to high school, how do I go to college, how can I get a job?! It is Sunday now and I spent the whole weekend feeling hopeless and wanting to die. I don't know what to do