Littlelynzy
26-08-15, 06:55
I am due to return to work on Monday after 2 months being signed off with anxiety issues.
At that time I was frightened of leaving the house as I was constantly in fear of having a panic attack, I wasn't eating as it flared up my IBS and I found night time was the worst as I lay awake worrying about how I was going to get myself back to normal. I was constantly in tears and as I have 2 young children I found it hard to be positive around them and often was snappy and irritable with them. I went to see my GP who prescribed me propranolol, I had a few sessions with a hypnotherapist and along with a friend I started going to yoga to try and control my anxious behaviour and eventually with the support of my friends and family I started to go out and about again and felt like slowly but surely I was getting my life back on track.
Unfortunately this past week the anxiety has crept back into my life, I am feeling constantly agitated and unable to eat or sleep. I know it is related to the thought of going back to work in a few days time and I worry I am not going to be able to get on that train on Monday morning and I will let myself and my family and my work down! I can't put my finger on what exactly is worrying me and I am angry at myself for allowing the anxiety to ruin my last few days off with my kids before I return to work. I felt that the last few weeks have been so positive but now I feel like I am back to square one again. I really want to be back at work again and get that normal routine back in my life and I hope my anxiety won't spoil that.
At that time I was frightened of leaving the house as I was constantly in fear of having a panic attack, I wasn't eating as it flared up my IBS and I found night time was the worst as I lay awake worrying about how I was going to get myself back to normal. I was constantly in tears and as I have 2 young children I found it hard to be positive around them and often was snappy and irritable with them. I went to see my GP who prescribed me propranolol, I had a few sessions with a hypnotherapist and along with a friend I started going to yoga to try and control my anxious behaviour and eventually with the support of my friends and family I started to go out and about again and felt like slowly but surely I was getting my life back on track.
Unfortunately this past week the anxiety has crept back into my life, I am feeling constantly agitated and unable to eat or sleep. I know it is related to the thought of going back to work in a few days time and I worry I am not going to be able to get on that train on Monday morning and I will let myself and my family and my work down! I can't put my finger on what exactly is worrying me and I am angry at myself for allowing the anxiety to ruin my last few days off with my kids before I return to work. I felt that the last few weeks have been so positive but now I feel like I am back to square one again. I really want to be back at work again and get that normal routine back in my life and I hope my anxiety won't spoil that.