Constant worry
26-08-15, 23:28
Hello, i am new here and i really just need to talk to someone because i feel like i am going to loose my mind. Oh and please excuse my english:unsure:
So i am 18 and since i was 12 i have "had" melanoma, ovarian, colon, breast cancer..., als and many more. But recently my concern has become brain tumor. I am sooooooo worried and scared, i can't sleep, do anything or talk to people, all i wanna do is just sit and think and WORRY. I made an appointment with doctor, but it is next week and i just can not wait anymore:scared15:.i am also very scared because she must think i am nuts as i am always there with some imagined symptoms.
So acording to my mind i have all the symptoms. The first was when i noticed slight tremor in my hands and of course i googled and baaaaam, brain tumor!!!!! My left hand shakes violently especially in certain positions (lying in bed and holding phone). Also, it seems like my peripheral vision shakes a bit in both eyes!!! It is very slight, in fact i sometimes can't notice it even if i try. I also get headaches which get worse when i lie down, but they usually occour when i am dehydrated. However the scariest thing of all is that somethimes while i am falling asleep my left hand starts to shake or it feels like it's shaking (idk because i am usually half asleep). Either way it can be a partial seizure and that terrifies me.
I don't expect anyone to diagnose me or say that i am 100%fine, I guess i just need someone to "talk" to who has been through something like that, actually just writting it down helps. I know this post is all over the place, so if you have actually took time to read it i am incredibly thankful.
So i am 18 and since i was 12 i have "had" melanoma, ovarian, colon, breast cancer..., als and many more. But recently my concern has become brain tumor. I am sooooooo worried and scared, i can't sleep, do anything or talk to people, all i wanna do is just sit and think and WORRY. I made an appointment with doctor, but it is next week and i just can not wait anymore:scared15:.i am also very scared because she must think i am nuts as i am always there with some imagined symptoms.
So acording to my mind i have all the symptoms. The first was when i noticed slight tremor in my hands and of course i googled and baaaaam, brain tumor!!!!! My left hand shakes violently especially in certain positions (lying in bed and holding phone). Also, it seems like my peripheral vision shakes a bit in both eyes!!! It is very slight, in fact i sometimes can't notice it even if i try. I also get headaches which get worse when i lie down, but they usually occour when i am dehydrated. However the scariest thing of all is that somethimes while i am falling asleep my left hand starts to shake or it feels like it's shaking (idk because i am usually half asleep). Either way it can be a partial seizure and that terrifies me.
I don't expect anyone to diagnose me or say that i am 100%fine, I guess i just need someone to "talk" to who has been through something like that, actually just writting it down helps. I know this post is all over the place, so if you have actually took time to read it i am incredibly thankful.