auclair
03-09-15, 21:02
Hello everyone. I would just like to say that I have not seen a doctor about anxiety and/or panic before because I've never experienced it before now. But I read some threads on the forums and you all seem very nice and supportive, so I thought I might consult you.
I live in Norway, I just turned 22, and I've been studying at university for two years now. During those two years I've lived with my parents because I study in my hometown and we live very conveniently in the city. Entering my third year I started to think about my living situation a bit more. I realised that I really didn't have many daily chores around the house, apart from helping my parents with all kinds of larger projects on the house, but very few day to day chores. I did not cook very often, I mainly studied and played video games, and one of my more recent friends had a spare room in his apartment; so I moved in.
Everything was just fine in the beginning of the process. I started to pack my things and bring it down piece by piece (still not finished), but the second evening/night in my new apartment I got some serious anxiety attacks. I couldn't fall asleep because I was freaked out about the fact that I wouldn't see my cat every day, I wouldn't see my family every day, I wouldn't have the spacial freedom that I used to have (my parents' house is big), I would start to accumulate debt (there is no tuition at Norwegian universities, but now that I live alone I have taken a loan/stipend (60-40) from a financial organisation that give loans to students) etc. The next day I got nauseated while at school and was feeling very tired. I brushed it off as an incoming illness, and because I didn't feel like cooking I had dinner with my parents instead, they live 5 minutes away. It was great; I got to see my cat again (which I absolutely love, I used to cuddle with her several times a day) and several times I choked up when I was back in what I think of as my home.
Sorry for the wall of text, I went into a trance and just kept on writing.
Now, I know it's healthy to be outside of your comfort zone, but I'm really starting to doubt whether this was a good decision or not. If anyone has had any similar experiences, I would love to hear your stories and tips.
I live in Norway, I just turned 22, and I've been studying at university for two years now. During those two years I've lived with my parents because I study in my hometown and we live very conveniently in the city. Entering my third year I started to think about my living situation a bit more. I realised that I really didn't have many daily chores around the house, apart from helping my parents with all kinds of larger projects on the house, but very few day to day chores. I did not cook very often, I mainly studied and played video games, and one of my more recent friends had a spare room in his apartment; so I moved in.
Everything was just fine in the beginning of the process. I started to pack my things and bring it down piece by piece (still not finished), but the second evening/night in my new apartment I got some serious anxiety attacks. I couldn't fall asleep because I was freaked out about the fact that I wouldn't see my cat every day, I wouldn't see my family every day, I wouldn't have the spacial freedom that I used to have (my parents' house is big), I would start to accumulate debt (there is no tuition at Norwegian universities, but now that I live alone I have taken a loan/stipend (60-40) from a financial organisation that give loans to students) etc. The next day I got nauseated while at school and was feeling very tired. I brushed it off as an incoming illness, and because I didn't feel like cooking I had dinner with my parents instead, they live 5 minutes away. It was great; I got to see my cat again (which I absolutely love, I used to cuddle with her several times a day) and several times I choked up when I was back in what I think of as my home.
Sorry for the wall of text, I went into a trance and just kept on writing.
Now, I know it's healthy to be outside of your comfort zone, but I'm really starting to doubt whether this was a good decision or not. If anyone has had any similar experiences, I would love to hear your stories and tips.