xofeatherxo
05-09-15, 03:56
No offense, but I was hoping I would never end up here again. I did so well for so long but over the past few weeks I've been flipping out over minor symptoms again.
It was manageable until last night, just little worries here and there, no big deal. But last night I noticed a red blotch on my eye (I'm assuming a broken blood vessel, since I sneezed at a weird angle earlier that day and it's already almost gone). I immediately thought eye cancer or something.
My hand has been hurting all day. It's happened every few months or so for at the very least four years (possibly up to 6 but I don't remember exactly), it's pain that starts in my hand and sometimes spreads to my elbow and armpit. I'm so paranoid that it's bone cancer, lymphoma, brain tumor, etc. It's the side I sleep on, I sleep on my right side with my arm under the pillow). I can't tell if that armpit is swollen, but if it is it's not much and it's not hard. I just looked in the mirror and the veins on that side of my chest are more visible than the other side, and usually they're both about the same. :/
I'm so angry at myself that I'm back to worrying again. I went sssooo long without any major freakouts. I forgot how much I hate this feeling. :'(
It was manageable until last night, just little worries here and there, no big deal. But last night I noticed a red blotch on my eye (I'm assuming a broken blood vessel, since I sneezed at a weird angle earlier that day and it's already almost gone). I immediately thought eye cancer or something.
My hand has been hurting all day. It's happened every few months or so for at the very least four years (possibly up to 6 but I don't remember exactly), it's pain that starts in my hand and sometimes spreads to my elbow and armpit. I'm so paranoid that it's bone cancer, lymphoma, brain tumor, etc. It's the side I sleep on, I sleep on my right side with my arm under the pillow). I can't tell if that armpit is swollen, but if it is it's not much and it's not hard. I just looked in the mirror and the veins on that side of my chest are more visible than the other side, and usually they're both about the same. :/
I'm so angry at myself that I'm back to worrying again. I went sssooo long without any major freakouts. I forgot how much I hate this feeling. :'(