Smiffy3594
10-09-15, 09:42
In most aspects of my life I am able to manage my anxiety and panic attacks but right now I my anxiety is high and I am panicking because of a work issue.
Since friday I have been covering for our Directors PA (and doing my normal role of being PA to two other people)
I missed a meeting decline from someone the other day (an internal person) that the director was to meet - I apologised to the director via email for his wasted time, I spoke to the directors business manager who was there to help me and she said dont worry about it (easier said than done right) so I tried to put that behind me and carry on.
But last night the director had an event in London for a show for 40 people - a guest showed up saying they had two tickets (for himself an external person and a lady person who works at our offices) to collect - the venue people contacted me as on the guest list I sent them for our area the gentleman was only allocated one ticket - I spoke to the directors business manager who was at the event and she confirmed he only was allocated one ticket.
I was thrown into panic - fired up my laptop looked through emails in the directors PA inbox could not see anything about this guy being allocated two tickets so I thought ok not my fault but was still very anxious.
then this morning I remembered getting an email in my inbox to me and another lady who has tickets in another area at the venue saying that there was a gentleman who was on both our lists for two tickets in both areas two in general population and two in the suite, the other lady told the venue to take him of her list.
I looked at my guest list and there were two men with the same first name one above the other (but different last names) so I went back to the events people but didnt copy the other lady in and said mine are two different gentleman - and then heard nothing more until last night
I am now in a state of panic that I messed up again and I'm going to get in trouble at work and am really beating myself up that is all my fault (maybe I should have been clearer to the events people and said he only had 1 ticket in our area)
I am fidgety cannot sit still / trying to calm down rapid breathing / lightheaded / chain smoking / trying not to burst into tears and very very anxious and cannot focus on anything !
I'm sorry if the above make no sense and seems like the rantings of a mad women.
But I thought maybe it would help if I typed out whats happened and posted it in case anyone else has had a similar scenario and can help me rationalise this in any way.
Since friday I have been covering for our Directors PA (and doing my normal role of being PA to two other people)
I missed a meeting decline from someone the other day (an internal person) that the director was to meet - I apologised to the director via email for his wasted time, I spoke to the directors business manager who was there to help me and she said dont worry about it (easier said than done right) so I tried to put that behind me and carry on.
But last night the director had an event in London for a show for 40 people - a guest showed up saying they had two tickets (for himself an external person and a lady person who works at our offices) to collect - the venue people contacted me as on the guest list I sent them for our area the gentleman was only allocated one ticket - I spoke to the directors business manager who was at the event and she confirmed he only was allocated one ticket.
I was thrown into panic - fired up my laptop looked through emails in the directors PA inbox could not see anything about this guy being allocated two tickets so I thought ok not my fault but was still very anxious.
then this morning I remembered getting an email in my inbox to me and another lady who has tickets in another area at the venue saying that there was a gentleman who was on both our lists for two tickets in both areas two in general population and two in the suite, the other lady told the venue to take him of her list.
I looked at my guest list and there were two men with the same first name one above the other (but different last names) so I went back to the events people but didnt copy the other lady in and said mine are two different gentleman - and then heard nothing more until last night
I am now in a state of panic that I messed up again and I'm going to get in trouble at work and am really beating myself up that is all my fault (maybe I should have been clearer to the events people and said he only had 1 ticket in our area)
I am fidgety cannot sit still / trying to calm down rapid breathing / lightheaded / chain smoking / trying not to burst into tears and very very anxious and cannot focus on anything !
I'm sorry if the above make no sense and seems like the rantings of a mad women.
But I thought maybe it would help if I typed out whats happened and posted it in case anyone else has had a similar scenario and can help me rationalise this in any way.