TiredofWorrying
11-09-15, 17:27
Hello all!
I have been looking on this site for a long time, and I finally decided to give it a try to see if it helps! I have horrible, crippling anxiety that mostly affects me when I'm alone during the day (while kids and hubby are gone). Mostly health anxiety, which leads to me convincing myself that I'm going to die of cancer or another catastrophic illness. I can easily spend the entire day googling symptoms, and have convinced myself that I've had many illnesses- ovarian cancer, lymphoma, MS, breast cancer, uterine cancer, melanoma, etc.. I feel like my symptoms are real, but will not see a GP out of fear of confirmation. I went last year after the breast cancer scare, which led to a clean scan and a prescription for ativan after I had panic attacks the following week. Since then, I've only taken 1 of those pills. I don't want to feel sleepy, I want to feel normal and relaxed.
I also have anxiety not related to health. I am constantly convinced my husband is cheating on me, even after meticulously searching his phone and Ipad over and over again. I constantly feel compelled to ask him questions to reassure myself, which he used to be patient about- now not so much. When in social or stressful situations, I have uncontrollable face and neck flushing, which is embarrassing! My throat feels like someone's hands are around it when I think about anything remotely upsetting.
It helps to know that there are others with the same issues, especially when nobody seems to understand how real my feelings are- even if I know they are probably irrational, I can't help it. My household has recently had many major changes and events- my Grandma was terminally ill, my husband was laid off, we had to move to a new city, and nothing is the same. I know that probably enhances my feelings, so my hope is that it will all go away soon. My kids deserve a Mom who is not constantly inattentive due to my daily anxious preoccupations!
Thank you for listening!!
I have been looking on this site for a long time, and I finally decided to give it a try to see if it helps! I have horrible, crippling anxiety that mostly affects me when I'm alone during the day (while kids and hubby are gone). Mostly health anxiety, which leads to me convincing myself that I'm going to die of cancer or another catastrophic illness. I can easily spend the entire day googling symptoms, and have convinced myself that I've had many illnesses- ovarian cancer, lymphoma, MS, breast cancer, uterine cancer, melanoma, etc.. I feel like my symptoms are real, but will not see a GP out of fear of confirmation. I went last year after the breast cancer scare, which led to a clean scan and a prescription for ativan after I had panic attacks the following week. Since then, I've only taken 1 of those pills. I don't want to feel sleepy, I want to feel normal and relaxed.
I also have anxiety not related to health. I am constantly convinced my husband is cheating on me, even after meticulously searching his phone and Ipad over and over again. I constantly feel compelled to ask him questions to reassure myself, which he used to be patient about- now not so much. When in social or stressful situations, I have uncontrollable face and neck flushing, which is embarrassing! My throat feels like someone's hands are around it when I think about anything remotely upsetting.
It helps to know that there are others with the same issues, especially when nobody seems to understand how real my feelings are- even if I know they are probably irrational, I can't help it. My household has recently had many major changes and events- my Grandma was terminally ill, my husband was laid off, we had to move to a new city, and nothing is the same. I know that probably enhances my feelings, so my hope is that it will all go away soon. My kids deserve a Mom who is not constantly inattentive due to my daily anxious preoccupations!
Thank you for listening!!