PWO_Nathan
11-09-15, 18:12
Hi all,
I have perused this website for a number of months and until now, not posted as I don't feel I have the right to complain. By this, I mean I have read some of your stories and I am utterly amazed at how strong you all are and how insignificant my symptoms are.
I am ex forces, having Served a number of years in the Prince of Wales Own Regiment (now known as the Yorkshire Regiment). I have never been an anxious person although both my parents were. My "condition" began in 2013 after I ran the Jane Tomlinson 10k for my chosen charity Mind. A week after I ran, I began becoming increasingly infatuated with my heart. I have two girls (third due end of September) and I would say, since the birth of my first daughter my anxiety has increased steadily to where it is now.
My anxiety is primarily focused on my heart. Over the last two years I have been to A&E countless times convinced I have a heart condition. I have had a tracing of my heart done (at much annoyance of the Doctors who said I met no risk factors of heart condition, and if I did indeed have one the 10k run would have at very least resulted in Angina attack) which came back perfectly fine. I am 32 years of age, I have never smoked, I do not drink (I did, heavily when I was in the forces but only on weekends :yesyes: ) and my diet is spot on. In addition, I weight train 4 times a week and I am described as muscular build.
All things considered, I just cannot get rid of the thought that I have a heart condition. The underlying reason for this, is my father had Angina. However, my father also was obese, had the worst diet ever and a heavy smoker. He died of pneumonia in 2005. The Doctors are trying their hardest with me and prescribed various medication ranging from Citalopram to Propranolol (I am now on 30mg Mirtazapine - 3 months in). My anxiety has began creeping back up and I check my pulse / heart rate every hour or so. I have been referred for CBT but it really is unbearable. As I said above, I don't feel I have any right to post on this forum as you guys have genuine symptoms and I feel my post is affront to your (for want of a better word) problems.
I don't even know what answer I want from this post, nor why I am writing it. I just thought I had to try something.
Thank you for reading.
I have perused this website for a number of months and until now, not posted as I don't feel I have the right to complain. By this, I mean I have read some of your stories and I am utterly amazed at how strong you all are and how insignificant my symptoms are.
I am ex forces, having Served a number of years in the Prince of Wales Own Regiment (now known as the Yorkshire Regiment). I have never been an anxious person although both my parents were. My "condition" began in 2013 after I ran the Jane Tomlinson 10k for my chosen charity Mind. A week after I ran, I began becoming increasingly infatuated with my heart. I have two girls (third due end of September) and I would say, since the birth of my first daughter my anxiety has increased steadily to where it is now.
My anxiety is primarily focused on my heart. Over the last two years I have been to A&E countless times convinced I have a heart condition. I have had a tracing of my heart done (at much annoyance of the Doctors who said I met no risk factors of heart condition, and if I did indeed have one the 10k run would have at very least resulted in Angina attack) which came back perfectly fine. I am 32 years of age, I have never smoked, I do not drink (I did, heavily when I was in the forces but only on weekends :yesyes: ) and my diet is spot on. In addition, I weight train 4 times a week and I am described as muscular build.
All things considered, I just cannot get rid of the thought that I have a heart condition. The underlying reason for this, is my father had Angina. However, my father also was obese, had the worst diet ever and a heavy smoker. He died of pneumonia in 2005. The Doctors are trying their hardest with me and prescribed various medication ranging from Citalopram to Propranolol (I am now on 30mg Mirtazapine - 3 months in). My anxiety has began creeping back up and I check my pulse / heart rate every hour or so. I have been referred for CBT but it really is unbearable. As I said above, I don't feel I have any right to post on this forum as you guys have genuine symptoms and I feel my post is affront to your (for want of a better word) problems.
I don't even know what answer I want from this post, nor why I am writing it. I just thought I had to try something.
Thank you for reading.