Dornish Red
14-09-15, 23:05
Hello everyone!
First of all, I apologize because this will probably be a long post, but I really have to tell this to someone because I feel terrible and don't really have anyone to talk about it in RL. I am sorry to see that so many of us suffer from health anxiety. I hope that everyone here gets better soon.
I am 23 years old, female. My health anxiety started a few months ago. I have always been a bit paranoid and suffered from anxiety.
So, few months ago I went to see a gynecologist for the first time. I had some problems for a long time but was scared to go and get diagnosed with something horrible so I avoided it for a looong time. Finally I went to get checked. Doctor said I had inflamed cervix, did a pap smear and give me some vaginal capsules. I had to wait for pap smear results for 6 weeks. Doctor said she will probably call me because I had a visible inflammation and that probably the result will be abnormal because of that, but she said not to worry too much, it's probably just inflammation. The treatment didn't help so I went back and had cervical swabs. My anxiety was TERRIBLE at that time, waiting for results, I was convinced I had cervical cancer because it has been years since my first sex, I was so mad at myself for being so irresponsible. Anyway, after weeks of agony, my pap smear came back fine, and cervical swabs showed that I had infection with bacteria Ureaplasma Urealyticum, that was causing my excessive discharge. I remember being so relieved and happy because it was nothing serious. When I remember that feeling now, I feel like crying, because I haven't felt relieved or calm for more than two months.
So I started to take antibiotics (doxycylcine) and then, once again, my agony began. I started to feel joint pain. In all my joints. Throbbing pain. Ankles, toes, fingers, wrists, shoulders. I felt pain in my hands and feet. My joints also started to produce cracking sounds a lot. I went to visit my boyfriend for a month and tried to just relax and not worry, because pain was very mild.When I came back, pain didn't went away. So I went to my doctor (GP). She was not working at the time,so I went to another one. At this point I started to feel pain all over my body, not just joints, but arms, legs, muscles. He didn't seem worried and did some blood test. Everything was fine except a slight aenemia, so he gave me iron supplements to take for 3 months. 2 weeks later my doctor came back from vacation so I went to visit her. I must say that at this point I was terribly worried. Googling didn't help. I was, and still am, extremely worried that I have bone cancer (because sometimes my bones hurt), leukemia or some other horrible diseases. Day before I went to see my doctor, I found a lump on my calf muscle. Of course, I immediately thought it was cancer. So I went to see her. She told me that I have reactive arthritis caused by ureaplasma. She said that's why my joints hurt. She looked at the lump on my leg and said not to worry, it was probably just a vein, and to come back only if it grows or turns red. So now every day I am obssesively checking it afraid that it will grow :( She also said that it's normal for young women to have slight aenemia, and I don't even have to take supplements.I must say I did blood tests about year and a half ago, and it also showed slight aenemia but my doctor said it was normal. So now, she said I have to treat the bacteria and that's it.
But, I am still very scared about joint/body pains. I am scared that I didn't explained my symptomes good enough. I feel like I didn't stress enough that I don't feel pain just in my joints, but in arms and legs as well. I cannot tell if this is muscle, bone pain, or both. My pains are still pretty mild. It is kind of a stabbing pain that doesn't last long.
So right now I am waiting to do my cervical swab again to see if bacteria is still here. My question for you guys is: are the symptomes I am feeling normal to reactive arthirits? I am so worried that it is something more. So, once again, my symptoms are these: mild pain/throbbing in joints (ankles, toes, wrists, fingers, shoulders, elbows) that change every day - one day some joints throbb, second day, some others, and so on-, also, I have stabbings and pain in my muscles (mostly thighs and upper arms), sometimes I feel like a mild ache in my bones in arms and legs, in specific spots,(I can't tell for sure what kind of ache is this, is kind of a discomfort in my bones, but I'm not sure), also sometimes I feel like my tendons are inflammed. I also still have excessive vaginal discharge. Also, crazy cracking sounds in all joints.
I am very anxious, cry every day, worried that I have something very serious that is not showing on my blood tests (CBC, CPR, sed rate) which were normal. I am also scared that the doctor didn't take me very seriously and that I didn't explain everything the way I should.
I know no one can give me diagnosis here, I am just curious if anyone experienced anything similar. I just want some kind words of reassurance because I feel like I am losing my life...I just worry, every day. I tell my boyfriend about my fears, but he just says I am crazy. I haven't said too much to my parents, my mom also has anxiety and I don't want to make her worry too much.
Problem is, there is not a single test to prove reactive arthritis. I only can wait to do a swab again and see if there is still bacteria, and hope that bacteria is causing all this. I am ashamed to go to my GP again because I know she will tell me to treat my infection and nothing more.
I can't live like this anymore, I feel like I am going crazy. I worry about every single little ache and discomfort in my body. I was not like this before. I don't want to be like this, but I can't help it. I am in constant fear, all the time. I can't study, I can't relax.
Sorry for the long post, I just had to tell this to someone. I hope someone can relate and just tell me everything is going to be okay.
Should I just wait and see if my problems go away with bacteria or go to my GP again? Should I be so worried?:weep:
First of all, I apologize because this will probably be a long post, but I really have to tell this to someone because I feel terrible and don't really have anyone to talk about it in RL. I am sorry to see that so many of us suffer from health anxiety. I hope that everyone here gets better soon.
I am 23 years old, female. My health anxiety started a few months ago. I have always been a bit paranoid and suffered from anxiety.
So, few months ago I went to see a gynecologist for the first time. I had some problems for a long time but was scared to go and get diagnosed with something horrible so I avoided it for a looong time. Finally I went to get checked. Doctor said I had inflamed cervix, did a pap smear and give me some vaginal capsules. I had to wait for pap smear results for 6 weeks. Doctor said she will probably call me because I had a visible inflammation and that probably the result will be abnormal because of that, but she said not to worry too much, it's probably just inflammation. The treatment didn't help so I went back and had cervical swabs. My anxiety was TERRIBLE at that time, waiting for results, I was convinced I had cervical cancer because it has been years since my first sex, I was so mad at myself for being so irresponsible. Anyway, after weeks of agony, my pap smear came back fine, and cervical swabs showed that I had infection with bacteria Ureaplasma Urealyticum, that was causing my excessive discharge. I remember being so relieved and happy because it was nothing serious. When I remember that feeling now, I feel like crying, because I haven't felt relieved or calm for more than two months.
So I started to take antibiotics (doxycylcine) and then, once again, my agony began. I started to feel joint pain. In all my joints. Throbbing pain. Ankles, toes, fingers, wrists, shoulders. I felt pain in my hands and feet. My joints also started to produce cracking sounds a lot. I went to visit my boyfriend for a month and tried to just relax and not worry, because pain was very mild.When I came back, pain didn't went away. So I went to my doctor (GP). She was not working at the time,so I went to another one. At this point I started to feel pain all over my body, not just joints, but arms, legs, muscles. He didn't seem worried and did some blood test. Everything was fine except a slight aenemia, so he gave me iron supplements to take for 3 months. 2 weeks later my doctor came back from vacation so I went to visit her. I must say that at this point I was terribly worried. Googling didn't help. I was, and still am, extremely worried that I have bone cancer (because sometimes my bones hurt), leukemia or some other horrible diseases. Day before I went to see my doctor, I found a lump on my calf muscle. Of course, I immediately thought it was cancer. So I went to see her. She told me that I have reactive arthritis caused by ureaplasma. She said that's why my joints hurt. She looked at the lump on my leg and said not to worry, it was probably just a vein, and to come back only if it grows or turns red. So now every day I am obssesively checking it afraid that it will grow :( She also said that it's normal for young women to have slight aenemia, and I don't even have to take supplements.I must say I did blood tests about year and a half ago, and it also showed slight aenemia but my doctor said it was normal. So now, she said I have to treat the bacteria and that's it.
But, I am still very scared about joint/body pains. I am scared that I didn't explained my symptomes good enough. I feel like I didn't stress enough that I don't feel pain just in my joints, but in arms and legs as well. I cannot tell if this is muscle, bone pain, or both. My pains are still pretty mild. It is kind of a stabbing pain that doesn't last long.
So right now I am waiting to do my cervical swab again to see if bacteria is still here. My question for you guys is: are the symptomes I am feeling normal to reactive arthirits? I am so worried that it is something more. So, once again, my symptoms are these: mild pain/throbbing in joints (ankles, toes, wrists, fingers, shoulders, elbows) that change every day - one day some joints throbb, second day, some others, and so on-, also, I have stabbings and pain in my muscles (mostly thighs and upper arms), sometimes I feel like a mild ache in my bones in arms and legs, in specific spots,(I can't tell for sure what kind of ache is this, is kind of a discomfort in my bones, but I'm not sure), also sometimes I feel like my tendons are inflammed. I also still have excessive vaginal discharge. Also, crazy cracking sounds in all joints.
I am very anxious, cry every day, worried that I have something very serious that is not showing on my blood tests (CBC, CPR, sed rate) which were normal. I am also scared that the doctor didn't take me very seriously and that I didn't explain everything the way I should.
I know no one can give me diagnosis here, I am just curious if anyone experienced anything similar. I just want some kind words of reassurance because I feel like I am losing my life...I just worry, every day. I tell my boyfriend about my fears, but he just says I am crazy. I haven't said too much to my parents, my mom also has anxiety and I don't want to make her worry too much.
Problem is, there is not a single test to prove reactive arthritis. I only can wait to do a swab again and see if there is still bacteria, and hope that bacteria is causing all this. I am ashamed to go to my GP again because I know she will tell me to treat my infection and nothing more.
I can't live like this anymore, I feel like I am going crazy. I worry about every single little ache and discomfort in my body. I was not like this before. I don't want to be like this, but I can't help it. I am in constant fear, all the time. I can't study, I can't relax.
Sorry for the long post, I just had to tell this to someone. I hope someone can relate and just tell me everything is going to be okay.
Should I just wait and see if my problems go away with bacteria or go to my GP again? Should I be so worried?:weep: