Notlrac87
15-09-15, 06:06
Hello no more panic, it's been over 2 years since I first visited this wonderful site and spilled the beans about my secret health anxiety. The open and honest advice given to me was the push I needed to be seen by the doctors I was diagnosed with a cancer focused health anxiety coupled with mild to moderate depression. I was given citalopram I took for six months before taking myself off them and telling my doctor I was never taking them again. I've since managed my depression and anxieties and cope really well now. With constant moral support from my doctor, my family and my friends.
Sadly I need to vent about my anxiety I have one swollen tonsil and it's worrying me sick I know I shouldn't have Googled it but I did *yes I slapped myself for it, yes it hurt* I'm making an appointment with my doctor 1st thing in the morning and although he knows my anxiety is cancer based that makes him all the happier to see me if something has changed (for example I had what I thought was a lump on my testicles turns out harmless cyst) anyway venting aside.
Thank you no more panic you helped me get my life back. Now to deal with this.
P.S. if you're wondering why I stopped the anti depressants it was because although I stopped feeling depressed I also stopped feeling anything Love - nothing, Laughter - nothing, even my sense of right and wrong often seemed skewed not that I acted on it but my moral compass felt off I had mental blacks pots where I'd done everyday tasks "pay bills, shopping, etc" that I woke up from having not known how or when I'd done it I lost days it scared me more than the depression so I came off it if I have to suffer sadness for a sound mind memory and to enjoy happiness then so be it. Has anyone else had this kind of experience on anti depressants because my fiancee went through similar feelings when she had citalopram.
TL;DR
- was depressed and anxious
- got help and feeling better
- rant about swollen tonsil
- rant about anti depressants.
Sadly I need to vent about my anxiety I have one swollen tonsil and it's worrying me sick I know I shouldn't have Googled it but I did *yes I slapped myself for it, yes it hurt* I'm making an appointment with my doctor 1st thing in the morning and although he knows my anxiety is cancer based that makes him all the happier to see me if something has changed (for example I had what I thought was a lump on my testicles turns out harmless cyst) anyway venting aside.
Thank you no more panic you helped me get my life back. Now to deal with this.
P.S. if you're wondering why I stopped the anti depressants it was because although I stopped feeling depressed I also stopped feeling anything Love - nothing, Laughter - nothing, even my sense of right and wrong often seemed skewed not that I acted on it but my moral compass felt off I had mental blacks pots where I'd done everyday tasks "pay bills, shopping, etc" that I woke up from having not known how or when I'd done it I lost days it scared me more than the depression so I came off it if I have to suffer sadness for a sound mind memory and to enjoy happiness then so be it. Has anyone else had this kind of experience on anti depressants because my fiancee went through similar feelings when she had citalopram.
TL;DR
- was depressed and anxious
- got help and feeling better
- rant about swollen tonsil
- rant about anti depressants.