BlueEyesShining
17-09-15, 12:48
Sorry if this post is too long but i have to vent! I fear skin cancer because this summer i have clearly gone overboard with the dosage of UV-radiation. And i know it`s irreversible. Baking in the sun and tanning beds. I know i`m guilty for that and i`m afraid that there will be a "sentence" for me because i cared more about my appearance than for my health. I feel somehow that there is a "doom" waiting for me and i`m afraid that if i get skin cancer everybody will say it`s my fault because many people have warned me not to stay out in the sun for so long. But the damage is already done. I feel really guilty. I`m constantly examining my skin. Luckily i don`t have any moles and i don`t have family history of skin cancer but naturally i`m very pale. I got to the point where i got really dark and i still am. I know i have done a big damage to my skin.
What`s more i fear that i won`t live to be with my loved one and i won`t have time to live all those beautiful moments that hopefully are waiting for me the next months and years. I`m afraid i will never again see them because i will die of cancer and that will be entirely my fault because i knew the danger and i just went on tanning for the sake of my beauty.
I`m just so sick of my health anxiety. I can`t live a normal life of a young person. I feel like my mind is going to explode.[COLOR="blue"]
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Anyone?
What`s more i fear that i won`t live to be with my loved one and i won`t have time to live all those beautiful moments that hopefully are waiting for me the next months and years. I`m afraid i will never again see them because i will die of cancer and that will be entirely my fault because i knew the danger and i just went on tanning for the sake of my beauty.
I`m just so sick of my health anxiety. I can`t live a normal life of a young person. I feel like my mind is going to explode.[COLOR="blue"]
---------- Post added at 11:48 ---------- Previous post was at 11:47 ----------
Anyone?