Baltasar
20-09-15, 13:32
I'm getting so tired of this... Two weeks ago it was Parkinson or ALS.
A few days ago I noticed what I thought at the time was a zit on my neck.
Yesterday I noticed it was still there. A little bumb, red, did not hurt, was not hard, movable, and as far as I could see not a lymphnode...
Just should have let it alone, but tomorrow I starting poking and pushing it. Nothing came out. Result: much bigger, noticeable lump in my neck...
Now the fear of some sort of tumor is all consuming... Why oh why do I do this? It boggles the mind. I've seen the real deal on my mother. I've seen them on my mother-in-law. Those beautiful women were very sick at that point. Those bumbs where hard immovable and skin coloured.
This all consuming fear is getting the better of me lately. I'm 39. Divorced. I've got two kids to take care of.
Maybe I've seen to much in my lifetime... So jealous of all those people out there who just say: oh.. yeah, probably a zit or something...
And then they just move on.
Can you imagine that?
They just move on...
A few days ago I noticed what I thought at the time was a zit on my neck.
Yesterday I noticed it was still there. A little bumb, red, did not hurt, was not hard, movable, and as far as I could see not a lymphnode...
Just should have let it alone, but tomorrow I starting poking and pushing it. Nothing came out. Result: much bigger, noticeable lump in my neck...
Now the fear of some sort of tumor is all consuming... Why oh why do I do this? It boggles the mind. I've seen the real deal on my mother. I've seen them on my mother-in-law. Those beautiful women were very sick at that point. Those bumbs where hard immovable and skin coloured.
This all consuming fear is getting the better of me lately. I'm 39. Divorced. I've got two kids to take care of.
Maybe I've seen to much in my lifetime... So jealous of all those people out there who just say: oh.. yeah, probably a zit or something...
And then they just move on.
Can you imagine that?
They just move on...