Nervous_Nelly
26-09-15, 01:16
Hello all!
I've been creeping around the internet, looking for anyone who feels the same way I do, lucky for me I ended up here. I have always had mild anxiety, but ever since I had my son 4 1/2 years ago, it went from mild to severe. My panic attacks used to be triggered by my son getting sick, even if it was just a little cold I would be an anxious mess, it was awful! That has subsided some, now that he has had several illnesses and survived all of them. Now my triggers are revolving around my own health. Now, let me just say that I am NOT an unhealthy person, I do have some allergies to certain medications and am sensitive to others, but all in all I think my health is good... That's the reality... But what my anxiety keeps telling me is that I am very unhealthy and just eaten up with every type of cancer known to man, and maybe some that have yet to be discovered. It's not just cancer either, I panic about taking meds, always thinking that I'm going to have an anaphylactic reaction to it, even if it's just aspirin! Some days I am afraid to go outside, because I may get stung by a bee and die from an allergic reaction! The last couple of years it has gotten worse and worse, now I am starting to feel depressed because all I do it worry about my health. On top of worrying about my health, I am constantly worried about dying and leaving my son motherless, which certainly goes hand in hand with worrying about my health.
I don't want to become agoraphobic because I am convinced that I'm gonna die in a fiery car crash every time I leave my house. I want to live my life and feel happy again. I don't want to live my life every single day thinking that every single ache and pain is going to literally be the death of me. I don't want my son to grow up thinking that his mom is "crazy", or "weird" or just in a constant state of panic. Although I know that they might help, I do not want to go on prescription medication for my anxiety. For one thing, I try not to put a lot of chemicals in my body (probably because I think they'll give me cancer) and one of my triggers is taking medications!
I just need to hear words of encouragement from other people who understand how I feel! I think it is time to finally to speak to a professional about these issues too.
I've been creeping around the internet, looking for anyone who feels the same way I do, lucky for me I ended up here. I have always had mild anxiety, but ever since I had my son 4 1/2 years ago, it went from mild to severe. My panic attacks used to be triggered by my son getting sick, even if it was just a little cold I would be an anxious mess, it was awful! That has subsided some, now that he has had several illnesses and survived all of them. Now my triggers are revolving around my own health. Now, let me just say that I am NOT an unhealthy person, I do have some allergies to certain medications and am sensitive to others, but all in all I think my health is good... That's the reality... But what my anxiety keeps telling me is that I am very unhealthy and just eaten up with every type of cancer known to man, and maybe some that have yet to be discovered. It's not just cancer either, I panic about taking meds, always thinking that I'm going to have an anaphylactic reaction to it, even if it's just aspirin! Some days I am afraid to go outside, because I may get stung by a bee and die from an allergic reaction! The last couple of years it has gotten worse and worse, now I am starting to feel depressed because all I do it worry about my health. On top of worrying about my health, I am constantly worried about dying and leaving my son motherless, which certainly goes hand in hand with worrying about my health.
I don't want to become agoraphobic because I am convinced that I'm gonna die in a fiery car crash every time I leave my house. I want to live my life and feel happy again. I don't want to live my life every single day thinking that every single ache and pain is going to literally be the death of me. I don't want my son to grow up thinking that his mom is "crazy", or "weird" or just in a constant state of panic. Although I know that they might help, I do not want to go on prescription medication for my anxiety. For one thing, I try not to put a lot of chemicals in my body (probably because I think they'll give me cancer) and one of my triggers is taking medications!
I just need to hear words of encouragement from other people who understand how I feel! I think it is time to finally to speak to a professional about these issues too.