GingerFish
29-09-15, 09:26
I have noticed that every time I go away on holiday, a weekend break or even just a long day out, my anxiety can be bad when I am out but as soon as I get home, its always 10 tens worse than it ever was when I was away which is weird and very annoying as when I am out and feel anxious, all I want to do is be home but as soon as I get home, there is no relief at all.
I was away in Gretna for the weekend with my partner to view the blacksmiths as a possible wedding venue and on the first night away, I was very anxious and even cried to come home which I tend to do on the first night I am away and then for the most part over the next 2 days, I calmed down and only had some anxiety here and there and ended up having a great time. On the way home though, I was glad to be heading home as I was missing my own bed and my cats so I was excited to get back but as soon as I got home, I felt nothing but high anxiety and my OCD flared up really badly which was disheartening as I had just managed to get it under control again.
On the first night of being away I felt very disconnected and felt like I had left myself back in my hometown and now I feel like I have left myself down in Gretna. This even happened when I went on a long day out last week! Its so annoying. I know its probably just nervous fatigue but its very draining. Nowhere feels like my 'safe place' when I am in this mood. My mum tidied up my flat when I was gone and added new furniture and curtains and it looks great as its usually a pig sty but I feel like I don't recognize the place any more which is probably adding to the anxiety.
I was away in Gretna for the weekend with my partner to view the blacksmiths as a possible wedding venue and on the first night away, I was very anxious and even cried to come home which I tend to do on the first night I am away and then for the most part over the next 2 days, I calmed down and only had some anxiety here and there and ended up having a great time. On the way home though, I was glad to be heading home as I was missing my own bed and my cats so I was excited to get back but as soon as I got home, I felt nothing but high anxiety and my OCD flared up really badly which was disheartening as I had just managed to get it under control again.
On the first night of being away I felt very disconnected and felt like I had left myself back in my hometown and now I feel like I have left myself down in Gretna. This even happened when I went on a long day out last week! Its so annoying. I know its probably just nervous fatigue but its very draining. Nowhere feels like my 'safe place' when I am in this mood. My mum tidied up my flat when I was gone and added new furniture and curtains and it looks great as its usually a pig sty but I feel like I don't recognize the place any more which is probably adding to the anxiety.