Rennie1989
04-10-15, 17:35
Hello everyone
I feel like I have been slacking in my newly appointed admin duties with my absence over the last couple of months, so firstly I apologise for that!
But there was a reason for it. After getting some reassuring news today that all is well I would like to announce that hubby and I are expecting a baby!
I've been absent lately, first, because of the horrendous morning sickness (which has, thankfully, subsided some what) and the fatigue that followed. But, I suppose what has been affecting me a lot is the emotional and mental side of early pregnancy. The 'Ow my God I have to be a responsible adult now!' and 'I'm going to be a mum! Me!' rang a lot, but then the doubts came too. I felt awful in myself that I had not done the things that I wanted to do pre-pregnancy, like get a degree or settle in a proper career, not earning enough to look after a child, not having the mental capacity to cope with motherhood and worrying how I could fail my child. And I started doing the stupid thing of comparing myself to others, how they're prettier than me, smarter than me, coping better than me and so on.
At the moment the negativity has subsided somewhat from the excitement of seeing my baby today, seeing them roll around, chew, knowing that they are healthy and has everything in the right place, and coo-ing over their cute little nose! So I'm savouring that moment and looking forward to the next milestones.
I feel like I have been slacking in my newly appointed admin duties with my absence over the last couple of months, so firstly I apologise for that!
But there was a reason for it. After getting some reassuring news today that all is well I would like to announce that hubby and I are expecting a baby!
I've been absent lately, first, because of the horrendous morning sickness (which has, thankfully, subsided some what) and the fatigue that followed. But, I suppose what has been affecting me a lot is the emotional and mental side of early pregnancy. The 'Ow my God I have to be a responsible adult now!' and 'I'm going to be a mum! Me!' rang a lot, but then the doubts came too. I felt awful in myself that I had not done the things that I wanted to do pre-pregnancy, like get a degree or settle in a proper career, not earning enough to look after a child, not having the mental capacity to cope with motherhood and worrying how I could fail my child. And I started doing the stupid thing of comparing myself to others, how they're prettier than me, smarter than me, coping better than me and so on.
At the moment the negativity has subsided somewhat from the excitement of seeing my baby today, seeing them roll around, chew, knowing that they are healthy and has everything in the right place, and coo-ing over their cute little nose! So I'm savouring that moment and looking forward to the next milestones.