Kishtu
06-10-15, 23:48
I have a cough. I have pains in my chest. I can't breathe, I have dizziness, and pains in my leg that fit with symptoms of a blood clot, and I might have pneumonia, and I might be going to have a heart attack.
I am also just getting rid of a cold, I have one leg shorter than the other, and I have panic attacks. So all the stuff I'm panicking about... is all perfectly explainable, and the doctors (and A&E before now) have explained it all to me before. Been there, no different this time to the last time I was sitting up at mignidght sick and shaking with panic.
I'm just so scared, and the thing that really annoys the hell out of me is that it's ME that's creating all these symptoms, my bloody stupid body demanding that I pay it some attention.
How do I stop going round and round in circles? It feels like every time I get a twinge somewhere and rationalise to myself that it is just my stupid shaky body tying itself in knots, I get another, different one to scare me....
I am also just getting rid of a cold, I have one leg shorter than the other, and I have panic attacks. So all the stuff I'm panicking about... is all perfectly explainable, and the doctors (and A&E before now) have explained it all to me before. Been there, no different this time to the last time I was sitting up at mignidght sick and shaking with panic.
I'm just so scared, and the thing that really annoys the hell out of me is that it's ME that's creating all these symptoms, my bloody stupid body demanding that I pay it some attention.
How do I stop going round and round in circles? It feels like every time I get a twinge somewhere and rationalise to myself that it is just my stupid shaky body tying itself in knots, I get another, different one to scare me....