price1974
09-10-15, 16:28
Last August I had a traumatic experience where I learned the child I was carrying would not survive birth and had to terminate for health reasons. I was blindsided and felt helpless and hopeless and that I had no control of any situation. In September I was bombarded with information about childhood cancers as September is Childhood Cancer Awareness month. And the son of a good friend of mine was battling Leukemia. As I was already reeling from my health trauma, this was the perfect storm.
I was convinced my son had a brain tumor as he woke vomiting two nights in a row. I took him to the doctor and she reassured me he was fine.
Since then I have been fixated on my son, 6 and my daughter, 9 that will develop leukemia. I check their bodies EVERY day for bruises and petechia. When they get a new bruise I need to know exactly how it happened to work through the fear in my head. It is horrible! I hate feeling this way!
I check their foreheads every day to see if they have a fever. It is crippling.
I want to take them to the doctor and have a CBC done on both of them to ease my fears but I realize that it is ridiculous to put them through that pain.
Help me!!!
I was convinced my son had a brain tumor as he woke vomiting two nights in a row. I took him to the doctor and she reassured me he was fine.
Since then I have been fixated on my son, 6 and my daughter, 9 that will develop leukemia. I check their bodies EVERY day for bruises and petechia. When they get a new bruise I need to know exactly how it happened to work through the fear in my head. It is horrible! I hate feeling this way!
I check their foreheads every day to see if they have a fever. It is crippling.
I want to take them to the doctor and have a CBC done on both of them to ease my fears but I realize that it is ridiculous to put them through that pain.
Help me!!!