ana
12-10-15, 14:14
Last week, my boss asked me to cover for a colleague, and do some extra work. I thought I'd be able to do it so I said yes. However, last night, I couldn't sleep at all. I kept thinking about how difficult it is for me to do afternoon shifts, how I get tired easily because my anxiety levels are at its highest in the afternoon/evening, and I kept coming up with excuses as to how to not do the work... I woke up after 6 hours, exhausted from my thoughts, and I rang up my colleague to tell her that I wouldn't be able to cover for her this week, but could do so the following week. She seemed fine with it, but then I got a call from my boss asking me if I was ill or if I was unwilling to do the extra hours. I told him I had a doctor's appointment, but that I would be willing to do extra hours another time, and he said fine...
I'm utterly disappointed with myself now, as I feel as if I've let my anxious thoughts influence my professional decisions. I can't allow myself to refuse to cover for my colleagues as I've only been at this workplace for a little over a year, and I think that my boss is keeping a close eye on me which is scaring me and causing me more stress. :(
I'm so tired of my anxiety taking the steering wheel away from me, and I've got a lump in my throat now as I'm feeling miserable and deflated. It's important for me to keep this job, to make a good impression, and to have more energy to do the extra work. Has anyone else's work suffered because of panic attacks?
I'm utterly disappointed with myself now, as I feel as if I've let my anxious thoughts influence my professional decisions. I can't allow myself to refuse to cover for my colleagues as I've only been at this workplace for a little over a year, and I think that my boss is keeping a close eye on me which is scaring me and causing me more stress. :(
I'm so tired of my anxiety taking the steering wheel away from me, and I've got a lump in my throat now as I'm feeling miserable and deflated. It's important for me to keep this job, to make a good impression, and to have more energy to do the extra work. Has anyone else's work suffered because of panic attacks?