rachelkookoo
13-10-15, 15:29
hello all
I actually had to make a new username because I couldn't remember my old one....too long ago!
Well for those of you who don't know me - I'm 25 years ago, have been experiencing anxiety and panic attacks since age 17. Hasn't been a massive problem for me for the past 3-4 years, been living with minimal anxiety and getting on/enjoying my life.
Lately my anxiety has been creeping up on me. Been experiencing panic attacks / toilet phobia (diarrhoea - need I say anymore?) while at work. Its been pretty hard because I mostly work 12 hour shifts. So stuck for 12 hours in a place which seems to be where my agoraphobia loves (or hates) the most.
I'm pretty sure this heightened anxiety is caused by a few things:
1. I'm moving in january to england to pursue a masters in mental health nursing (go figure!) - I'm actually super excited but I guess moving and change and all that does bring about anxiety.
2. more than anything I had a discussion with my boyfriend of 4 1.2 years last month which i think REALLY added to my anxiety. basically i thought we were a 'sure thing' (if theres even such a thing - probably not!!) and the conversation basically opened up to him saying that he loves me, but he's not sure I'm 'the one'. blah blah blah. so of course all this uncertainty has led my anxiety to be like :bighug1: helloooooooo racheeeellll remember mee??? your old buddy old pal who likes to ruin relationships and life in general!!! but besides that, he's actually been trying harder in this relationship and seems more affectionate. has always been supportive and great with my anxiety.
anywho, short story thats where i am now. struggling as i feel i wanna stay at home most days and make my way through countless cups of tea and biscuits. but nay, life goes on and i want to get through this. going to see a counsellor tomorrow, maybe I should start taking my anxiety medication again? (bromazapam 3mg). I've also started exercising and practicing meditation which does help to get rid of stress in my muscles.
just need some TLC and support. :weep:
I actually had to make a new username because I couldn't remember my old one....too long ago!
Well for those of you who don't know me - I'm 25 years ago, have been experiencing anxiety and panic attacks since age 17. Hasn't been a massive problem for me for the past 3-4 years, been living with minimal anxiety and getting on/enjoying my life.
Lately my anxiety has been creeping up on me. Been experiencing panic attacks / toilet phobia (diarrhoea - need I say anymore?) while at work. Its been pretty hard because I mostly work 12 hour shifts. So stuck for 12 hours in a place which seems to be where my agoraphobia loves (or hates) the most.
I'm pretty sure this heightened anxiety is caused by a few things:
1. I'm moving in january to england to pursue a masters in mental health nursing (go figure!) - I'm actually super excited but I guess moving and change and all that does bring about anxiety.
2. more than anything I had a discussion with my boyfriend of 4 1.2 years last month which i think REALLY added to my anxiety. basically i thought we were a 'sure thing' (if theres even such a thing - probably not!!) and the conversation basically opened up to him saying that he loves me, but he's not sure I'm 'the one'. blah blah blah. so of course all this uncertainty has led my anxiety to be like :bighug1: helloooooooo racheeeellll remember mee??? your old buddy old pal who likes to ruin relationships and life in general!!! but besides that, he's actually been trying harder in this relationship and seems more affectionate. has always been supportive and great with my anxiety.
anywho, short story thats where i am now. struggling as i feel i wanna stay at home most days and make my way through countless cups of tea and biscuits. but nay, life goes on and i want to get through this. going to see a counsellor tomorrow, maybe I should start taking my anxiety medication again? (bromazapam 3mg). I've also started exercising and practicing meditation which does help to get rid of stress in my muscles.
just need some TLC and support. :weep: