Juicemeister
19-10-15, 02:42
Hey everyone! I'm new here, read a lot of others posts and got to say it's comforting to know I'm not suffering alone and that there's others out there that will get where I'm coming from!
Trying to cut a long story short, 11 years ago I went on a day trip with a friend to London. We were having an amazing time. Then out of no where I had my first Anxiety attack. I had no idea what was happening to me and it was one of the scariest moments of life! Over the next few months they'd happen around 10 times a day and I became Agoraphobic & confined to just my bedroom, going to the loo which was literally outside my bedroom door was such a task in itself! It's been 11 years now, over that time I have managed to work out most my "triggers" had two children and even walk them to school everyday! I can go places as long as there is a car nearby just encase. I still have my bad days I don't know if it's something that will ever go away.
Anyway, I've finally taken the plunge and booked a hotel with my Partner and eldest son to go back to London and stay next to the London eye for a weekend in February. It's just down the road from where it all started and I feel like going back there is something I need to face before I can progress anymore.
I am soooooo petrified! London is 3 hours away from my home, so there will be no quick escape. I guess I wondered if anyone else has done something like this or if anyone has any advice or opinions on the matter? I'm excited and I hope I can show my son London. I just don't know if I'm pushing myself too hard?
Thanks guys :bighug1:
Trying to cut a long story short, 11 years ago I went on a day trip with a friend to London. We were having an amazing time. Then out of no where I had my first Anxiety attack. I had no idea what was happening to me and it was one of the scariest moments of life! Over the next few months they'd happen around 10 times a day and I became Agoraphobic & confined to just my bedroom, going to the loo which was literally outside my bedroom door was such a task in itself! It's been 11 years now, over that time I have managed to work out most my "triggers" had two children and even walk them to school everyday! I can go places as long as there is a car nearby just encase. I still have my bad days I don't know if it's something that will ever go away.
Anyway, I've finally taken the plunge and booked a hotel with my Partner and eldest son to go back to London and stay next to the London eye for a weekend in February. It's just down the road from where it all started and I feel like going back there is something I need to face before I can progress anymore.
I am soooooo petrified! London is 3 hours away from my home, so there will be no quick escape. I guess I wondered if anyone else has done something like this or if anyone has any advice or opinions on the matter? I'm excited and I hope I can show my son London. I just don't know if I'm pushing myself too hard?
Thanks guys :bighug1: