lofwyr
20-10-15, 20:59
I am away from home, and in a fairly stressful situation, so my attunement to the things that make me anxious is a bit amplified right now.
So, having had tinnitus in the past, I have a new kind, and only in my left ear. It pulses and flows with heart rate. I suspect it is related to blood flow because it changes based on head position, posture, and just generally feels like blood flow. It is a steady, rushing sound, amplified with each beat of my pulse. I am not overweight, have good blood pressure, eat a healthy diet, etc. which is not to say it couldn't be heart disease related, it just doesn't seem as likely.
I know many, many people deal with this, or something very close to it, and for the vast majority, it is something benign. I am 45, and not at my wits end, but I cannot seem to shake the feeling that this is something more than pulsatile tinnitus, or just a quirk, even though I have a history of tinnitus (mostly resulting from gunfire and some other noise exposure). My wife even gets this periodically. I know there are many, many causes for this, and like I said, most of them benign. I even posted in a thread about this a week or so ago on this forum.
I just wish I could shake the feeling that something sinister is going on, when it is almost certainly, "just one of those things." I have no other symptoms, aside from an annoying clicking noise at night in my other (right) ear when I am laying on my left side. Otherwise, I feel great. No headaches, no dizziness etc. I am away from medical care for a good month, so I need to make peace with this as what it likely is, anxiety, and learn to move on.
But every night at bed time, it is so quiet, and it is all I can hear. Which of course makes the anxiety worse. I am pretty much just venting at this point, so thanks for hearing me out. This forum really does help me be a bit more realistic about my issues with anxiety, and the very real symptoms that it can cause, and just putting them in this venue seems to help me let go of them a bit in a cathartic manner.
So, having had tinnitus in the past, I have a new kind, and only in my left ear. It pulses and flows with heart rate. I suspect it is related to blood flow because it changes based on head position, posture, and just generally feels like blood flow. It is a steady, rushing sound, amplified with each beat of my pulse. I am not overweight, have good blood pressure, eat a healthy diet, etc. which is not to say it couldn't be heart disease related, it just doesn't seem as likely.
I know many, many people deal with this, or something very close to it, and for the vast majority, it is something benign. I am 45, and not at my wits end, but I cannot seem to shake the feeling that this is something more than pulsatile tinnitus, or just a quirk, even though I have a history of tinnitus (mostly resulting from gunfire and some other noise exposure). My wife even gets this periodically. I know there are many, many causes for this, and like I said, most of them benign. I even posted in a thread about this a week or so ago on this forum.
I just wish I could shake the feeling that something sinister is going on, when it is almost certainly, "just one of those things." I have no other symptoms, aside from an annoying clicking noise at night in my other (right) ear when I am laying on my left side. Otherwise, I feel great. No headaches, no dizziness etc. I am away from medical care for a good month, so I need to make peace with this as what it likely is, anxiety, and learn to move on.
But every night at bed time, it is so quiet, and it is all I can hear. Which of course makes the anxiety worse. I am pretty much just venting at this point, so thanks for hearing me out. This forum really does help me be a bit more realistic about my issues with anxiety, and the very real symptoms that it can cause, and just putting them in this venue seems to help me let go of them a bit in a cathartic manner.