Matt21
23-10-15, 20:23
Hi I am Matt and I am 27 from the united kingdom.
I have been dealing with anxiety for many years and have always used this site to seek reassurance for myself but never actually signed up until today. I am going through a bit of a crappy time at the moment. I don't have a lot of friends, never really have and I just have a lot of health concerns.
I know I am not the only person out there and I usually tend to just keep everything to myself as I don't like to bother people with my problems. Then I am starting to think I am not doing myself any favors so thought talking to people with maybe the same issues would help.
I was born with something called Duane syndrome where I just don't have muscles to the left and right of my eyes. This means I just can't turn them very well to the left and right. I got a lot of stick for it back in school as I used to have to look up to correct my vision. It never really bothered me when I was younger though and as I got older no one would really notice it. Now that I am getting older I started to see a lot of floaters and had a lot of eye tests done but everyone has said my vision has been fine. I passed my driving test last year and started to drive after being put off for so long due to my anxiety.
Just recently though, my right eye is not really good for reading from far away and when I blink I see a dark/white circle (depending on the background) as if someone is flashing something. Got back from the hospital today and there is something at the back of my eye as had a scan done. I am going to be going for further tests but when I got home I thought I would do a bit of research.
I now believe I could have something called macular degeneration. I did this test at the opticians where you look at a graph with lines in and it's supposed to stay straight when looking at it. When I look with my right eye the lines look wavy which is a sign I could have this eye disease which can lead to vision loss and there is no cure.
I have not been diagnosed with anything yet but after doing that I am certain that's what it is and it's killing me because one of my biggest fears is going blind.
I feel like a lost cause really so I turned to this site in hope of feeling just a little better.
Thanks for reading.
I have been dealing with anxiety for many years and have always used this site to seek reassurance for myself but never actually signed up until today. I am going through a bit of a crappy time at the moment. I don't have a lot of friends, never really have and I just have a lot of health concerns.
I know I am not the only person out there and I usually tend to just keep everything to myself as I don't like to bother people with my problems. Then I am starting to think I am not doing myself any favors so thought talking to people with maybe the same issues would help.
I was born with something called Duane syndrome where I just don't have muscles to the left and right of my eyes. This means I just can't turn them very well to the left and right. I got a lot of stick for it back in school as I used to have to look up to correct my vision. It never really bothered me when I was younger though and as I got older no one would really notice it. Now that I am getting older I started to see a lot of floaters and had a lot of eye tests done but everyone has said my vision has been fine. I passed my driving test last year and started to drive after being put off for so long due to my anxiety.
Just recently though, my right eye is not really good for reading from far away and when I blink I see a dark/white circle (depending on the background) as if someone is flashing something. Got back from the hospital today and there is something at the back of my eye as had a scan done. I am going to be going for further tests but when I got home I thought I would do a bit of research.
I now believe I could have something called macular degeneration. I did this test at the opticians where you look at a graph with lines in and it's supposed to stay straight when looking at it. When I look with my right eye the lines look wavy which is a sign I could have this eye disease which can lead to vision loss and there is no cure.
I have not been diagnosed with anything yet but after doing that I am certain that's what it is and it's killing me because one of my biggest fears is going blind.
I feel like a lost cause really so I turned to this site in hope of feeling just a little better.
Thanks for reading.