Xeonocide
28-10-15, 21:55
Good day to all,
Let me begin by stating that this year for me has been rather traumatic. I like to think that in most cases I am rather strong willed mentally but unfortunately this is not always the case; especially in the last two month. Let's just say that my grandmothers untimely demise due to cancer has prompted me to over analyse everything I have experienced. It had also up until two months ago led to a rather lengthy alcohol binge. Now completely devoid of this substance, I am trying to deal with this grief in other ways; namely the hard way - CBT, no medications of any kind and healthy living.
This brings us to the present. Somehow in the last week I have developed this rather ominous fear that I am dying of a brain tumor. Let me express my symtoms: a feeling of pressure above my eyes in the frontal region of my brain, every now and again MINOR headaches which are usually precipitated by bouts of stress, twitching ONLY before I am trying to fall asleep (very unnerving) and finally my thought that my pupils are not EXACTLY the same, though several family members feel that I am simply barking mad and this is not the case. I will note that even with me looking the difference is very small but I could have sworn that previously there was no difference at all (its less then 1mm). Can stress cause this? On top of this I notice that every now and again I hit the wrong keys on the keyboard, and I stumble on my words every now and again but this could just be insomnia right?
In reality I find myself to be a rather logical and reasonable person. This is something I pride myself on, and if I see something, I naturally research it - and research it I have. What I have found on this subject was mortifying and has since led to crippling anxiety and insomnia.
Overall I just wonder if my symptoms are likely to get worse and turn into something much more ominous.
Thanks in advance
---------- Post added at 21:55 ---------- Previous post was at 19:07 ----------
Anyone?
Let me begin by stating that this year for me has been rather traumatic. I like to think that in most cases I am rather strong willed mentally but unfortunately this is not always the case; especially in the last two month. Let's just say that my grandmothers untimely demise due to cancer has prompted me to over analyse everything I have experienced. It had also up until two months ago led to a rather lengthy alcohol binge. Now completely devoid of this substance, I am trying to deal with this grief in other ways; namely the hard way - CBT, no medications of any kind and healthy living.
This brings us to the present. Somehow in the last week I have developed this rather ominous fear that I am dying of a brain tumor. Let me express my symtoms: a feeling of pressure above my eyes in the frontal region of my brain, every now and again MINOR headaches which are usually precipitated by bouts of stress, twitching ONLY before I am trying to fall asleep (very unnerving) and finally my thought that my pupils are not EXACTLY the same, though several family members feel that I am simply barking mad and this is not the case. I will note that even with me looking the difference is very small but I could have sworn that previously there was no difference at all (its less then 1mm). Can stress cause this? On top of this I notice that every now and again I hit the wrong keys on the keyboard, and I stumble on my words every now and again but this could just be insomnia right?
In reality I find myself to be a rather logical and reasonable person. This is something I pride myself on, and if I see something, I naturally research it - and research it I have. What I have found on this subject was mortifying and has since led to crippling anxiety and insomnia.
Overall I just wonder if my symptoms are likely to get worse and turn into something much more ominous.
Thanks in advance
---------- Post added at 21:55 ---------- Previous post was at 19:07 ----------
Anyone?